Rmzaani

Laiye hmari ramzani abbu…

Ye eidi to suni thi pr ramjani kya bla hai.abbu dijiye na…

Mia shamim ne kurte ki jeb se 100 rupaye nikaal kr wasim ke hath me rakh diye.

wasim ghr me sbse chhota tha aur sbse ladla bhi ammi ke sath khana bnawana.bazar jana aur ghr ke sare kaam bakhoobi aata tha.

Tbhi ghr ki bell baji wasim turant darwaaje ki taraf badha ki amir bhaijaan honge gate khola to imraan the.peeche mud kr dekha to lga abbu has rhe ho dekh kr.

Kaise ho wasim.theek hu maine roza iftaar ke liye meethe bhaat bnaye hai…

Imraan ne smile krte hue kaha theek hai….

Baat ek saal pahle ki hai jb imraan wasim ke bade bhai Amir se milne uske ghr aaya tha na Jane kya baat thi us din imraan usse kisi baat pr jhagda kr rha tha pr wasim ko aur uske hath me daal se bheega chamcha dekh Dr gya tha ya wasim Pahli nazar me ghr kr gya tha imraan ke.

Aur to aur wo jate jate Amir se maafi bhi maangi thi aur wasim ke dekh kr halki si muskurahat dete hu 9 2 11 ho gya…

Agle din wasim ke ghr ke samne wali dukaan me cigarette phook rha tha.wasim jhhaajhe me aaya aur dekh kr chala gya.

Fir wasim ko imraan apni bike pe dikh hi jata tha kbhi bazar me to kbhi ghr ki khidki se to kbhi collage se niklte hue.

Ek din himmat kr ke imraan ne puchch hi liya ki ghr tk chhod du wasim mna Kr ke auto me baith gya.dekha to imraan auto ke peeche peeche chal rhe hai us din waakai wasim ko bahut gussa aaya ye baat usne abbu se bhi btayi thi….

Pr ek mahine baad notice krte krte wo khud hi bazar me jhhola liye uski bike pr baith gya.

Ab to imraan khushi se phoole na samaye us din badi dheere chale rhe the waise to bike ka hawai jahaj chalate the pr aaj peeche wasim baithe the.ye pyaar bada ajeeb tha pr sachcha tha….

December me na Jane kyu wasim aur imraan ne ek sath rahne ka faisla kr liya…isi baat pr to bahut Behas hui thi wasim ke ghr me wasim ne sbki marzi ke khilaaf jake imraan ko chuna tha aur wo.

Present day..

Wo bhool gya tha ab uska pta Begum Ganj nhi rawatpur me tha flat no 709….

Jyada waqt nhi lgta use khana bnane aur do logo ka khana hota bhi kitna hai…

jitna km waqt bnane me lgta tha utna hi waqt khane me lgta tha na Jane kyu aaj bhi wasim ko apne abbu ki kahi baat ko lekar rota tha..

Ki is ghr se jayega to hmare liye Mr jayega kitni baar to imraan ke samne foot foot kr rone lgta tha…

Ramzaan ke mahine ka ek hafta ho gya tha iftaar ke liye bhaji sivaiyaan dhundhte dhundhte Begum Ganj ki bazaar aa gyi thi wo ghr yaad aagya abbu ka ghr….

Tbhi wasim ke peeche kisi ne hath rakha peeche dekha to chachi thi.wasim ki ankho me anshu aa gye ki puri tarah uska pariwaar bhula nhi hai use..

Chachchi ne kaha kaise ho wasim.jano jaise wasim ruh laut aayi ho. Usne kaha abbu kaise hai chachchi…

Theek hai pr roza nhi rakha unhone is baar wasim….

Kareeb do ghante tk ruka fir chachi ko apne ghr ka pta aur phone nmbr de kr chala aaya…

3 din beet gye the chachchi ne abbu se btaya hoga ki nhi….

Pachve din ghr ki bell baji gate khola to dekha to chachchi thi gate pr aur ghuste hi boli wasim ghr to bahut achcha hai tera chachchi shaam tk ruki aur chali gyi….

Imraan aa gye the ghr pr wasim ko sb kuch btaya diya tha….

Chachchi ne kaha hai ammi abbu ko bhi mnane ki koshish karegi..

Aaj itne Dino baad wasim khush tha aur use dekh kr imraan bhi.

Wasim ko apne tute hue pariwaar ko jodne ki umeed dikh rhi thi ek ajeeb si khushi thi uske dil me….

Din beet rhe the aur chachchi ka koi phone nhi aaya tha….

Alvida jumme se do roz pahle.

Chachchi aayi thi aaj to wasim ne kah diya tha imraan se mil kr jaiyega usko surprise denge shaam ko wo bhi bahut khush hoga Aur roza iftaar bhi unke sath kr lijiyega.

Chachchi se baate krte krte na Jane kb shaam ho gyi ghr ki bell baji gate khola to dekha imraan aur Amir bhaijaan the. imraan ne mujhe hi surprise kr diya tha.

Imraan ne kaha bazaar me Amir bhaijaan mile to ghr le aaya.

Amir ghr ke andar aaya aur deewar pe bachpan ki abbu ke sath photo dekh kr bola ghr to bahut achcha hai….

Imraan ne kaha roza khol kr jana wasim ne bhi kaha pr na chachchi ne kuch khaya aur na Amir bhaijaan ne..

Amir ne kaha tiffin ho to usme de de jb Amir jaane lga to usne 100 rupaye nikaale aur wasim ko dene lga wasim ne mna Kr diya…

Amir samajh gya tha itne saalo se sbse pahle ramzani ho ya eidi abbu se leta tha…

Amir ne chachchi se kaha ghr chalte hai chachchi ne btaya usne mere se bhi paise nhi liye milte hi sbse pahla sawal ye tha ki abbu kaise hai…

Amir ke ghr pr.

Amir ne tiffin ke meethe bhaat aage krte hue kaha abbu meri dost ki patni ne bnaye hai chakh kr dekhiye.samim ne hath me lete hi wo usme ilaiyachi ki mehak aur unhe wasim yaad aa gya tha apne anshu chhupate hue sb kha gye the wo meethe bhaat aaj apne sbse ladle ki yaad aa gyi thi unhe…..

Aaj Alvida zumma tha shaam ka waqt ho gya tha Amir aur uske abbu apne kaam se wapas aa rhe the. Amir ne bike ko rawatpur ki taraf mod diya…

Abbu ke puchchne pr btaya kisi se milna hai bs do minute ka kaam hai 15 minute me pahuch gye the flat no 709 ke samne…

Ghr ki bell baji wasim ko lga imraan honge jb gate khola to samne abbu the….

Wasim ke anshu ruk nhi rhe the usne abbu se kaha abbu mujhe ramjani de dijiye…

Ramzaani de dijiye.

Meri ramzani…..

Shamim shahab bhi apne ankho ke sailaab rok nhi paaye aur kurte se 100 ka note nikala aur matha chumte hue hath me rakh diye.

Ab wasim ko uski ramzani mil gyi thi shamim ne andar lgi tasweer ko dekh kr kaha ghr bahut achcha hai tumhara.

Wasim ne kaha abbu apke ghr jaisa nhi us se achcha ghr nhi hai ye. Pr na Jane kyu wasim ko ye ghr aachccha lg rha tha.

Jaate jaate shamim mia ne kaha  Ramzaan mubarak ho beta……..

Raas.....

Biscuit deeware aur mn me sb jagah silan hi to thi 3 din se Mumbai baras rha tha shaam ka waqt tha Socha aligarh ghr chala jaau to vikash ko call kr ke use parso mathura junction me aane ko kaha. Ye wahi shehar tha jahan maine apna collage kiya tha aur isi shehar me mera pyaar bhi mila tha.

Na Jane kaise aaj train mathura junction pr samay se pahle aa gyi thi.mai utra aur apne laptop ka bag tanga aur trolly tha chhota sa ab jyada kapde nhi achche lgte the utar kr vikash ko call kiya to wo so rhe the nikle bhi nhi the ghr se mai chai wale ke paas gya aur bolne wala tha ki ek awaz ne mujhe rok liya maano kaano me misri si ghul gyi ho….

Palat kr dekha to wahi chehra tha jis se mai na milne ki dua krta tha.wo amar tha usne meri taraf dekha aur kaha kaise ho shubh mai ankhe faad kr bs dekhe ja rha tha . maine kaha theek hu tum btao…

Yahan kaise ghr ja rhe ho maine kaha ha bahut din se aaya nhi tha.

Ye wahi chehra tha jo collage me mujhse nazare milate thakta nhi tha.

Yahi uske puchchne ka andaz tha jb mai apni class chhod kr uski class me chala jata tha..

Pr ab wo kashis nhi thi sawal me..

Maine kaha chai peete peete baat kare chai wale ne hme do kullhad de diye aur chai se ilaiyachi ki mehak ne wo 4 saal yaad dila diye the…

Usne kaha maine tumhari kahi padhi thi bahut achchi thi 

Tumhe achchi lgi Soch rha tha tumhe Soch kr hi to apne sabdo ko aakar deta hu.

Ha wo magazine nikal kr dikhane lga tha…

Door ek sajjan gamchha baadhe seek wali jhhadu se dhool aur kachra hta rha tha mere mn me tha ki ab hme jagah chhodna padega pr us sajjan ne mano meri mn ki baat sun li chai wale ne hme ek aur kullhad de diya.

Amar ne kaha mai pura nhi piyunga maine kaha chhod do.chahta tha ki sb bta du ki dekho tumhare liye maine haath kata tha aur tum kisi aur ke sath chale gye. Uska aur mera ek common frnd tha abhinav usi ne btaya tha…

Sayad uske pair thodi thakawat mehmoos kr rhe the to wo dukan ke paas ek pillar se tek lga ke khada ho gya.

Usne puchcha aur btao koi film me writing ka offer aaya. Maine kaha nhi

Mano koi teacher apne student se carrier ke baare puchch rha ho.fikr to bahut thi use un char saalo me usne mujhe ek aami ladke se khas bna diya tha.mere khane ki chinta mere padhai ki chinta mere future ki chinta fir usi ne mujhe khasamkhas se aam bna diya tha.

Usne chai ka kullhad fekte kaha prem mandir chaloge tumhare paas waqt hai.maine kaha ha usne ek phone kiya aur kaha mai khud aa jaungi.ye keh ke hm log station se bahar aa gye.usne kaha auto wale se puchcho prem mandir chalega.

Maine puchcha aur hm log auto me baith kr ja rhe the wo bahar dekh rha tha.ab ek ajeeb si hichkichahat thi.usne auto ko mujhse highway ki taraf le Jane ke liye kaha.maine auto walo ko keh diya.highway ke taraf ped the kisi pe patank kisi pe kapde adhure pyaar me bhi to latak jate hai.usne kaha yahi rukwa do maine rukwa diya usne kaha kuch khaalo samne restaurant tha usne wahi pure menu card ko dekh rha tha.mai Soch rha tha ki auto ke liye tb mere paas itne paise nhi hote the.pr mai ye bhi to nhi chahta tha ki khachakhach bhari bus me mere sath jaye…

Usne rajma chawal order kiya maine kaha tum usne kaha nhi mai nhi khaunga aaj tum khaao.

Khatam kr ke bahar aaye to thodi dur chalne ke baad barish hone lgi thi usne bag se chhata nikala aur kaha aajao mai ek tuk dekhta ja rha tha.ki ye wahi amar hai jise barish me bheegna pasand tha.

Ab raha nhi ja rha tha to us se puch liya.

Kyu amar kyu chhod gye the hme aur kya zarurat pad gyi char saalo tk kitna achcha tha hmara rista kya achcha nhi tha.

Usne kaha abhi bhi to achcha hi hai shubh.usne btaya wo yahi ek school me bachcho ko padhane lga hai. Usne khud hi btaya shayad ab mera haq nhi tha.

Samne prem mandir tha hm gate se ek bade jhhumar ke niche aa gye the samne radha krishna the unke kandhe pr sir rakh ke mano kah rhi ho ki krishna tum jeevan maran se mukt ho kr ek ho jaye sada ke liye.

Amar ne mera hath pakda uske hath ka paseena mere hatho me mehmoos ho rha tha.hm us radha krishna ki pratima me kho chuke the.aaj wo mandir bahut khoobsurat lg rha tha.

Kho kr wapas aaya to paya amar nhi tha wahan  use yahan wahan dhunda to kahi nhi mila aur meri puri shirt bheegi thi.

Maine us common frnd ko phone kiya usne jo btaya ab tk ho rhe sbhi cheez ko challenge kr diya tha.

Usne btaya 

Shubh uski to aaj subah delhi mathura highway pr accident me maut ho gyi thi…

Mai ye sun kr stabd rah gya tha maine peeche mud kr dekh radha krishna ki murti ko dekha to mano mujhse keh rhi ho ki mohhbbat kaisi bhi achchi hoti hai. Mere Sawalo ka sare jawab mil gya the ab mere ankho se halke se anshu aa gye the pr halki barish ho rhi thi . mano aaj badal bhi rone wale ho.

Tbhi mera phone baja vikash ka tha.

Kahan ho shubh tum.

Maine kaha prem mandir me.

Usne puchcha kahe bhaiya wahan kya kr rhe ho….

Mere muh se nikla Raas……………..

Zindangi ek waiting room...

Waiting room jahan log intzaar krte hai apni manzil tk pahuchne ka.

Aur kisi manzil ho hi na to aise intazaar ka kya karenge..

Avinash ki zindangi bhi aise hi ho gyi thi manzil ke bina intzaar ki….

Ye kareeb 4 saal pahle ki baat jb rehan ki maut ek car accident me ho gyi thi aur wo 2 saal ka rony hath me thama gya tha rehan ke sath hi sayad avinash ke jeene ka maqsad khatam ho jata pr uske jeene ki wajah rony tha.

Avinash tut chuka tha mano koi paltu janwar ki tarah ho gya tha bs ek hi kone me rahta tha.

Avinash beta chala ja na mandi job bhi achchi hai dekh na kaisa sukh gya hai tu km se km apne liye nahi to rony ka Soch.

Jahan baat bachcho ki aati hai to hme na chahte hue bhi haan krni hi padti hai ….

Avinash ne kaha ji ma chal jaunga…

Vadiyo me jhulta hua ghr maano badalo me ghr bna hua ho. Aur wo barish pahle achchi lgti thi pr ab…rehan ke sath Pahli baar shimla hi to aaya tha hotel se bahar jaate the to bheeg kr wapas aate the..

Papa wo dekho khargosh rony ke chehre smile thi aur wo khush tha in wadiyo me…..

Rony ko chhate me liye seedhiyo se utar rha tha ki tbhi kisi ke girne ki awaz suni sedhiya utarne ke liye hoti hai do hi seedhi bachi thi to kisi ko lgi nhi avinash ne rony ko sambhalate hue kaha dekh nhi chal sakte kya….avinash ko gussa aa rha tha bahut aur wo admi kuch 25 ya 26 saal ka tha gorilla ka mask lgaye ye dekh kr rony hasne lga tha…..

Wo uthte hue kaha sorry mask utaarte hue kaha mera naam pawan hai wo seedhiyo pr itni kai aur barish to hm fisal gye the…..

Avinash wahan se chal diya….

Dusre din wahi usne avinash ko roka aur Kaha kl ke liye sorry gussa to abhi bhi tha rony ne puchcha wo apka mask kahan hai jawab diya wo to theatre me hai kl hmara natak hai….

Usne do tickets nikaali aur dene lga avinash ne mna Kr diya usne fir toka shayad aapne hme maaf nhi kiya…

Avinash ne kaha aisi koi baat nhi hai….

Pawan aage aaya aur usne ticket rony ko di to rony jungle book ke character dekh kr bahut khush hua tha…

Pawan ne kaha hm paas aapko de dete pr natak ka kharcha bahut hua bs 200 rupaye…

Avinash ne haste hue wallet se nikal kr de diye…..

kl avinash ko pahle tyaar ho kr rony ko tyaar krna pada play ke liye….

Play khatam hua to usne avinash ko rukne ka ishara kiya…..

Aaiye canteen chalte hai yahan chai bahut achchi milti hai….rony ne puchcha wo apka mask kahan hai….pawan se mask nikaal kr avinash ko de diya kaha tumhare papa ke paas hai….rony baaki logo se baat kr rha tha….

Avinash baithe hue use btaya ki wo uska papa nhi hai uske papa ab nhi hai. Hmne rony ko godh liya tha….actually mai ek ladke se pyaar krta tha bt ab wo nhi hai ye kahte hue avinash ki awaz dab si gyi thi usne ye bhi btaya ki wo school me art teacher hai…..pawan bahut dhyaan se sun rha tha…..

Avinash ne kaha mai ab chalta hu mai…pawan ne kaha ruko adhera ho gya hai mai bhi chalta hu….

Pawan ne avinash aur rony ko ghr chhoda shayad bahut kuch tha pawan ke mn me pr kah nhi paya tha…

Agle din ki shaam thi gate pr knock hua gate khola to gorilla ka mask pahne koi tha rony bahut has rha tha….

Usne mask utara aur kaha andar aa jau…

Usne ghar ki dewaro ki taraf dekha aur kaha koi painting nhi hai avinash ne kaha aap teacher se pahle ek artist bhi to ho…..

Usne ye kah kr mask pehan liya tha aur rony ke sath khelne lga….

Avinash apni khaali deewaro ko dekh rha tha.

Ab roj sham ko pawan rony ke sath khelne aata tha wo nhi aata tha to avinash aur rony chale jate the….

Bahut ghul mil gya tha pawan se….

Avinash ne puchcha pawan aur kon hai tumhare ghr me….

Pawan ne kaha koi nhi hai…

Aur ma

Ma hoti to din bhr ghumta nhi rahta itna sahi kahne me uski ankho me paani aa gya tha…

Pawan uth kr jala gya tha….

Na Jane kb 7 mahine ho gye the mauka tha pawan ka birthday wo hme kisi hotel me le gya tha….

Bahut himmat kr ke usne avinash ki taraf dekha aur kaha…

Avinash hm ek dusre ko achche se jante hai…..

Avinash i love u

Avinash wahan se uth kr rony ke sath chala gya ghr pahuch kr bag se rehan ki tasweer nikali aur bahut roya maano jaise us se izazat le rha ho us naye riste ….

Avinash bahut ro rha tha lekin ye theek bhi tha mn halka hota hai….

Wo kuch samajh nhi pa rha tha…..

3 din ho gye the pawan nhi aaya tha na call na koi msj 

Chouthe din avinash ne phone uthaya aur msj ki pawan ko….

Thank you mujhe samajhne ke liye mujhe zarurat hai aaj shaam ko aaoge na…

Pawan ka reply….

Ek smile thi……..

Usne mobile chhod kr rony ko dekha jo pawan ke na aane se udas tha aur mai bhi shayad….

Sham ko maine gate khol kr rakha hua tha gate se thandi wadiyo ki hawa bah rhi thi rony apne khilone se khel rha tha

Awaz aayi rony maine ankh band ki aur khola to dekha pawan tha gorilla ka mask lgaye…

Rony bahut khush tha pawan ne mask utara aur meri nazaro mila kr maano keh rha ho tumhe sambhal sakta hu…

Maine use dekhte hue ek smile di aur usne bhi maano hmari nazaro ne milo ka rasta tay kiya ho aur intzaar bhi pr abhi bhi manzil dur hi thi….

Mn me lg rha tha ki Zindangi ek waiting room hai……..

Ek radha aur ek rukmani

Subah subah ma ka phone aaya neend khul gyi thi….

Hello virendra.

Ha ma beta shaadi kr le ab tu ab to settle bhi ho gya hai aur Teri waqalat bhi theek thak hai..

28 ka ho gya hai ab nhi karega to kb karega.

Ma mai abhi shaadi nhi Krna chahta hu itna kah kr ma ka phone cut kr diya tha.

Tyaar hua aur apne office aa gya wahan pahle se ek lady baithi thi….

Maine puchcha yes mam.

Unhone kaha waqil shahab mera naam anuradha hai mujhe ek kaam hai apse…

Ji……….

Waqil shahab mere pati ka ek affair tha ab wo to nhi rhe pr unka bachcha hai kuch aisa kr dijiye ki usko bhi uska haq mile aur mere bachcho ko bhi pr iska pta mere bachcho ko na chale….

Achanak mera dhyaan aniket ki tasweer pr chala gya…

Kuch aisa hi to tha mera bhi kissa ek radha aur ek rukmani ka. Aniket ka bhi to mai radha hi tha…..

Baat 9 July 2008 ki thi jb aniket aur hm collage me the wo Pahli baar mujhe dhundhnte hue aaya tha. Hm ek hi class me the b. sc. Pr kuch aisa hua ki hmare raste alag ho gye ya kr diye gye the.

9 July ke baad ab hmari dosti khub ho gyi thi… uska mujhe ghr pr lene aana….

Waqt beet ta gya aur hm waqt ke sath hmare rishte gahre aur mazboot hote gye…. na Jane kb wo sirf dost nhi rha…

Ab mai uska wait collage me nhi cafe me krne lga tha aur unka hmesha late aana fir ek smile dete hue sorry kahna…..

Waqt ko mano pankh lg gye the….

Aniket ne collage band kr diya tha usne btaya papa chahte hai mai civil engineering ki padhai karu maine haste hue kaha good babu…

Pr mujhe khabar hi nhi lgi ki hmare raste bhi alag ho chuke the…

Uske collage chhodne ke baad maine bhi chhod diya mn nhi lgta tha. Or law collage me admit ho gya tha…..

Yun alag nhi ho sakte hm pyaar bahut krta tha wo…

2011 me hm log shimla ghumne gye the wahi usne aur maine use puri tarah apnaya tha…..

Wahan se aane ke baad hm log settle hona chahte the aur hue bhi 2011 ke last tk hm log delhi aa gye the aur hmne ek baby adopt kiya tha 3 years ka. Hmne uska naam sumit rakha tha.

Hm log pura ek saal rahe the.aniket ne btaya ki ghr se call aaya tha ghr ja rha hu..

Papa ne bulaya hai hm dono ne ye baat apne ghr walo se chhupa ke rakhi thi…

Aniket ghr se wapas aa chuke the kuch pareshan the mere puchchne pr kuch btaya nhi sumit ko sula chuka tha aur wo balcony me the.mai bed pr baitha tha ki wo mere pair pakad kr ro rhe the maine puchcha babu kya hua….

Aniket ne kaha papa chahte hai ki mai shaadi kr lu babu yakeen maano apko dhokha nhi dena chahta mai…hmara ek bachcha hai babu pr itni himmat nhi ki ma baapu ko ye sb bta saku…
Babu mai ruk gya tha kahte kahte aniket bahut roya tha us raat 

subah maine use samajhaya ki unke liye tumhari ko priority hai wo sahi kah rhe hai apko shaadi kr leni chahiye andar se bahut ro rha tha…

Aniket ne kaha aur sumit maine smile krte hue kaha sumit ko mai bhi paal sakta hu tb mai roya nhi….

Aur aniket ko shaadi ke liye mna liya tha wo ja chuka tha uske jaane ke baad bahut roya tha maine….

Sumit ko kuch nhi btaya tha wahan aniket ki shaadi ho chuki uska phone aaya tha…

Wo fir bhi dukhi tha mujhe aur sumit ko lekar maine use bulaya aur samajhaya tha ki wo khush rhe ab….

Usne btaya ki wo apni wife ko bta dega maine mna Kr diya tha.

Jb wo delhi shift ho gya tha apni wife ke sath to hafte me ek baar mujhse aur sumit se milne aata tha…

Mai bhi khush tha apne aniket ke liye pr wo ek dohri zindangi ji rha tha….

Mujhe bura lgta tha pr mai bhi pyaar krta tha use..

Mazboor tha us waqt bahut mazboor aniket ki zimmedaari thi uski wife…

Pr maine kbhi us se ye bhi to nhi kaha tha ki mai bhi uski zimmedaari hu…

Aaj 5 saal ho gye the aniket ko dohri zindangi jeete jeete…..

Pr ma ko abhi tk kuch nhi btaya tha bs itna ki maine ek bachcha god liya hai….

Present time….

Tbhi phone ki ring baji maine uthaya to maid thi usne btaya ki sumit baba ghr aa gye hai…..

Mere samne wo lady baithi thi maine unse kaha so sorry mai thoda…

Unhone kaha koi baat nhi waqil shahab…

Unse puchcha ki aap unke bachche ko haq dena chahti hai…

Ji waqil shahab 

Kya aap unhe jaanti hai.ha waqil shahab unka 9 saal ka ladka hai…

Ohk aap apne husband ki will aur unka address details dijiye….mai krishna dunga….

Wo dekar chali gyi file uthayi tbhi phone baja mai office se nikal kr bahar aa gya ma ka phone aaya tha.

Soch rha tha apne aur sumit aur aniket ke baare me aaj 3 hafte ho gye wo aaye nhi aur na call…

Mn me khyaal aaya wo busy honge……………

Office aa kr file uthayi thi naam tha aniket tiwari aur jisko dena tha uska naam tha sumit Srivastava aur pta mera tha……

Rona to bahut aa rha tha pr anshu the ki aaj hi nhi rhe the…..

Ye sb padhne ke baad maine anuradha ji ko 3 din baad bulaya aur kaha anuradha ji unhone lene se mna Kr diya hai unhone kaha hai unka haq aniket pr nhi hua to uski property pr kaise…

Unhone ye bhi kaha hai ki aap bahut lucky hai jo aniket ke sath rah payi aur unka sath pa payi …….. 

unhone ye bhi kaha hai mai radha hu pr aap rukmani 

Ye ek letter unhone diya hai apke liye….

Anuradha ji ke ankh se anshu aa gye the unhone wo koi devi hi hogi inta kah kr wo chali gyi thi….

Mai shaant ho kr ghr aa gya tha…

Papa hm kaha ja rhe hai beta hm nani ke yahan ja rhe hai hmesha ke liye….

Kl subah train thi sari packing ho gyi thi…..

5 baje shaam ko dekha to mera kanpur dikh rha tha sunahari lalima me…

Mn me kah rha tha dekho aniket hm wahi aa gye jahan mile the jahan ek dusre ke sath hmesha rahne ka wada kiya tha…..

Anshu aa gye the…apne aap ko sambhalate hue kanpur aaya fir ghr.

Raat ke khane ke baad sumit so gya tb ma ke paas gya gutno me baith kr sb kuch bta diya aur khoob roya….

Maine ma se aaj rone de ma bahut Dino se anshu nhi nikle dil halka hoga

Ma ne kaha khoob ro beta bahut kuch dil me lekar ghum rha hai achche se ro le………

Tune itna sb kuch tere dil ne saha aur kuch bhi nhi btaya…..

Mai meri zindangi to yahi thi ek radha aur ek rukmani………………..

Pyar aur zarurat....

Babu mere shocks kahan hai…

Almaari me dekho wahi hai. 

Shubh tumhara dhyaan kahan hai dekho paratha pura jal gya hai…

Oh sorry….

Kya baat hai shubh koi baat hai to btao…

Nikhil kuch puchchna hai….

Ye zarurat aur pyaar me farq kya hai… nikhil ne mera hath pakda aur kaha pyar aur zarurat dono me ye farq hai ki zarurat pyaar se alag hoti wo hr waqt sath nhi deti zarurat kuch pl ki hoti hai.aur pyaar puri zindangi ke liye hota hai . pyaar kuch pl ka ho wo pyaar nhi hota……

Ye farq hai bachcha….

Mai ja rha hu office ohk bye love u so much….( Smile krte hue)

Bye nikhil love you too……

Mai sofe me baithe Soch rha tha kl rohan ka call aaya fir bula rha tha….

Jb mai 12th me tha tb hmare ghr ke paas ek ladka rahta tha rohan… dekhne me bahut achcha tha wo mera pahla crush tha.usne mujhe samajha aur mujhe accept bhi kiya…..😔

Hm ghumte the Firte the sath me bahut maze krte the….

Pr kuch chhut rha tha.4 mahine ho gye the hme pr ab wo baat nhi thi…..

Uska jb mn hota tb wo bulata tha lgne lga tha ki sirf zarurat puri kr rha hai wo pr maine wada kiya tha jb tum bulaaoge tb mai zarur aaunga….

Aaj fir rohan ka phone aaya tha.bulaya hai usne……

Janta hu dhokha de rha hu pr kya karu mai mazboor hu…..

Mai apne kaam me lg gya tha….

7 PM. ( Ting tong )

Nikhil aa gya… gate khola…

Kaisa rha apka din baby usne kiss krte hue kaha….

Achcha tha babu…..

Nikhil mujhe aap se kuch puchchna hai….

Babu mai Soch rha tha ki kanpur ho aau…

Ek din ke liye…

Nikhil ne kaha theek hai…..

Nikhil subah me chhodne aaye mai dhokha de rha hu unko nikhil ko nhi pta tha….

Station pr baitha Soch rha tha ki aaj rohan ka wada tod dunga mna Kr dunga ki ab mai nhi aa paunga kisi ke sath me hu ab apne atit ko apne bhavisya pr haavi nhi hone dunga mna Kr dunga rohan se…..

Meri train aa gyi….

Mai apni seat pr jake baith gya shaam ko kanpur me subah jaldi utha to mai so gya….

2 baj gye the adha rasta kt gya tha….

Kanpur utrte hi nikhil ko phone kiya mai pahuch gya babu….

Fir maine rohan ko call kiya wo lene aa rha tha…..

Wo aagya…

Rohan ne puchcha kaise ho mst lg rhe shubh…

Maine smile krte hue kaha theek hu tum btao….

Rohan ke sath uske dost ke ghr gye usne taala khola andar laaya mujhe kiss ki aur kaha bahut din se adhura sa lg rha tha….

Mai kuch keh nhi paya rohan raat ka intzaar kr rha tha aur mai agli subah ka….

Finally raat thi aur wo sb kuch kiya jo rohan ko pasand tha….

Soch rha tha ki kl sb kuch kah dunga..

Subah ho gyi thi rohan mere liye chai bna ke laya…

Maine kaha rohan kuch kahna hai tumse.rohan ne kaha bolo jaan…

Ek lambi saas li aur bolna start kiya…

Rohan mai aaj ke baad nhi milunga tumse kyunki mai nikhil ko dhokhe me nhi rakh sakta…

Mujhe tumhari zarurat nhi nikhil ka pyaar chahiye uske sath rahta hu mai yun uske sath hokar kisi aur ke sath affair nhi kr sakta hu sorry rohan…
Dhokha nhi de paunga use uski ankho maine khud ko dekha hai….

Rohan ne meri taraf dekha rha tha….

Usne smile krte hue kaha shubh mai mna nhi Karunga tumhe shayad jo mai nhi de saka wo wo de sakta hai….

Pahle pyaar krta tha tumse na Jane kb zarurat ho gya wo pyaar pta hi nhi chala in 3 saalo me sach nhi accept kr paya tha pr nikhil ne sachchai aur tumhe accept kiya tha…..

Rohan ne kaha mai aaj ke baad tumhe phone nhi karunga….

Rohan ne kaha tyaar ho jaao nyi zindangi me ja rhe ho…..

Shaam ko train thi rohan train me baitha kr chala gya.

Mai Soch rha tha ki nikhil ko bhi peechle 3 saalo ka sb kuch bta dunga…

Subah ghr pahucha to nikhil ja chuka mai bs shaam ka….

Intzaar khtm ho gya tha nikhil ghr pr tha himmat nhi ho pa rhi thi pr 

ankhe band ki aur kaha nikhil aapko kuch btana hai . …

Nikhil ne kaha kaho babu…

Maine kaha babu aapko puchcho rhe the na ki kahan khoya hu babu jb mai 12th me tha tb mujhe ek ladka mila tha rohan naam ka…aapko yaad hai mai peechle 3 saalo se kanpur jata tha mai rohan se milne jata tha wo mera pahla crush tha….apse puchcha tha na ki pyaar aur zarurat dono me farq kya hai…

Mujhe uski zarurat nhi pyaar chahiy..

aur kl bhi mai usi se mil kr aaya. us se waada kiya tha is liye bs..

Meri ankho se anshu aa rhe the…

Pr rote hue kaha mai use mna Kr aaya ki aaj ke baad nhi milunga us se…

Mujhe kisi zarurat nhi pyaar chahiye..

Nikhil shaant meri taraf dekh rha tha lg rha tha kuch bura kahega.. 

wo utha aur usne kaha bahut bhook lgi hai babu…
Nikhil ne mera hath pakda aur kaha I love u babu take care…

Nikhil ne meri zindangi ko ek Chance aur diya tha wo meri taraf kr ke kah rha ho mai Tum pr trust krta hu tumne sachchai btayi ye badi baat hai . …

Shayad yahi Soch rha ho ya kuch aur 

Nikhil ne kaha babu be loyal with ur self nd ur life….

Love you so much shubh…..

My new flat....

Rithala me new flat liya tha. achcha tha 1bhk flat tha.alag jo ho gya tha kisi se.ab rahne wale do nhi the na….

Kanpur se delhi aaj hi aaya tha aur net pr hi flat book kiya…..

Achcha tha 16th manjil pr tha pura sheher dikhta tha pr……

Is shehar me…….

Apna samaan lgata hu aaj hi lga leta hu kl Sunday hai araam karunga fir Monday se nayi job ha gurpreet publication house me.nayi job lgi thi…..

Mai apna samaan lga rha tha ki ek dairy aur kuch purple colour ke parde mile….

Dairy me koi naam nhi tha bs likha tha….

 dear dairy ….

Mai use side me rakh kr kaam krne lga dekhte dekhte hi raat ho gyi….

Khana khaya aur thak kr so gya……

Sunday…….

Sote Sote 11 baj gye maine jor se awaz lgayi mahi pr kuch jawab nhi aaya….

Mai uth kr kitchen me gya to koi nhi hai….fir yaad aaya wo hai hi nhi…..

Nasta bnaya balcony me aa kr baith gya sardi me dhoop kitni achchi lgti hai na…..

Soccha ki kl jo dairy mili thi padhu…..

Jan 1/Sunday 

Mai abhi gate kholunga aur tum bread aur dhoodh le kr bahar khade hoge…..

Kitni baar kaha hai helmet pahan ke jaya karo pr nhi…..

Apko to action dikhana hona tha hai……

Tumhe yaad nhi hoga ki aaj kya hai pr nhi yaad hoga to mai kahunga bhi kya tumhari smile mera Sara gussa bhula deta hai…..

2 Jan /Monday 

Aaj cafe me tumhara wait krte krte 3 coffee pi li thi….

Pr tumhara kuch ata pta nhi kitni pasand thi tumko ye cafe yahi to CP me mile the hm aur tumne aakr puchcha tha ki tum akele ho…

Maine haste hue kaha tha nhi mere 7 bf hai koi na koi aa jayega…..

Aur tum chale gye the muh latka ke…..

Tum hi ne btaya tha ki wo tree heart shape bnata hai aur us building ke upar do kabutar ka joda hai……

Tum fir late aaye pr tumhari smile…..

Maine dairy band ki aur sochne lga ki jiski dairy hai wo kaisa dikhta hoga….

Uske baal sayad chhote honge aur wo yahi baith ta hoga 

Aur jis tarah se sabdo ko likha hai uski umar lagbhag 30 tk hogi matured writing thi us dairy me…..

Socha jis cafe ka ziqr hai wahan jata hu 

Blue moon cafe…..

Shaam ko gya wahan dhundhne lga wo table kon si hogi jis se wo heart shape wala tree dikhega…..

Finally mil gyi…..

Mai baith gya aur coffee order ki ab mai dhundh rha tha wo kabutar…..

8 baje mai ghr waapas aa gya aur dairy apni table me rakh di…..

Din beet rhe the pr mera atit mujhe chhod hi nhi rha tha naye log naya shahar sb se mai anjaan sb mujhse….

Ek mahine ho gye the aapne aap me itna kho gya ki ek mahine se maine koi book ko published krne ki permission nhi di thi….

Wo dairy dhundh rha tha…

Pta nhi kahan rakh di oh mil gyi…..

Aaj suru se nhi beech se padhta hu…..

15 March 

Kaisa saaman lgaya kuch bhi theek nhi rakha hai gussa aa rha hai tum pr wahan jake tum apni sehat Mt kharab kr lena 

Shayad jb wo ye likh rha tha to ro rha hoga kyunki kahi kahi ki shyahi dhuli hui thi…..

Maine Socha kl phir jaunga wo cafe shayad mil jaye wo…..

Aur apne sath wo parde bhi le gya tha ki milega to de dunga…

Gya wahi table me baitha tha….

Intzaar krte krte shaam ho gyi….

Mere mn me khyaal aaya kyu na is diary ko publishe karu….

Fir 3 din baad mai cafe me tha…

Aaj wo table bhari thi us pr koi 20 ya 22 saal ka ladka baitha tha…

Mai muda to sheeshe me dikhe waise hi hubahu purple parde jo meri taraf se nhi dikh rhe the bt us taraf se seeshe me dikh rhe the…..

Mai jakar uske samne baith gya….

Mai uske samne jake baith gya 

ab shayad wo kabutar yahan nhi rahte . …

Usne kaha ji mai samjha nhi….

Maine fir kaha aaj aapne kitne cup coffee pi….

Maine kaha sb padha hai maine apki dairy me ye sun kr wo gusse se bola….

How dare you to read my personal diary tumhe pta nhi ki nhi padhni chahiye….

Maine kaha ek to mai waapas kr rha hu upar se itna gussa…..

Mai to publish krne wala tha….

Uska gussa or badh gya ab to 

Publish krwa ke to dekho tumhe court tk na laya to dekhna…..

Laao meri diary….

Nhi hai yahan flat me aake le lena bhalai ka to zamana hi nhi ye kah mai nikal gya…..

Agli subah . …

10 baje gate pr bell baji maine gate khola to wahi dairy wala ladka….

Maine andar bulaya aur coffee ke liye puchcha….

Usne smile ke sath kaha yes…..

Mai coffee lekar aaya to dekha wo balcony me hai.mai aaya…

Usne kaha mai yahan ek takhat rakha tha aksar hm dono shaam ko yahi suraj ki jati kirno ko dekhte the.aur wahan samne deewar pr hmari tasveer thi…

meri aur mere bf ki…….

Usne kaha oh sorry mera naam gurpreet singh hai….

Maine Socha mn me kahi to suna hai ye naam 

Are ha gurpreet ji inke hi publication house me job krta hu . ye jyada kaam ghr se hi krte hai to kbhi mil nhi paya tha…..

Maine suna tha inke bf ke baare me wo army me the kashmir me wo shaheed ho gye the…..

Usne kaha mammy papa ab akele rahne nhi dete mai unke sath hi rahta hu ab….

Usne kaha dairy puri padh li….

Maine uske ankhe mila kr ab jarurat nhi….
Maine coffee ke mug uthaye aur Jane lga muda mn me Socha alag nhi hai hm dono ek hi to mera jo chala gya use paane aaya hu aur iska to sb kuch chala gya uske kandhe ki taraf hath badhaya fir kuch soch kr peeche le liye….

Mai use dekh rha ki ab wo yahan zindagi dhundh rhi hai aur yahi se suruwat bhi ki uske sath zindagi….

Use maano lg rha tha us balcony me Ki uske sath uska jeevan saahi yaani anirudh bhi ho…..

Mai mug le kr kitchen me chala gya………

I hate barish

Subah subah Rahul ka phone aaya kaha shubh dekh mausam kitna achcha hai hm aa rhe hai barish me nahaeyenge…..

Maine kaha tu janta hai Rahul I hate barish yr…..

Itna kah kr phone kaat diya……

Kho gaya tha apne atit me peeche chala gya tha ek saal us din bhi to aisi barish ho rhi thi hm naagloi me apne  naye office ka pta dhundh rhe the..

Mai aur Rahul chale ja rhe the barish itni ho rhi thi ki kuch saaf nazar nhi aa rha tha….

Tb chaurahe pr bike pr ek ladka dikha maine puchcha suno ye dainik jagran ka office kahan hai usne do chaurahe aage aur fir right hand side….

Mujhe hmesha se barish na pasand nhi thi…..

Barish ki wajah se hm aage nikal aaye the…

Wo bike wala aage mila usne kaha aapka office peeche chhut gya maine peeche dekha aur kaha……

Usne kaha mai aapko chhod deta hu 

Mai aur Rahul uski bike pr baith gye….

Tb usne btaya uska naam abhishek hai maine kaha thoda aage hi mera room hai . …

Usne mujhe room pr drop kiya….

Maine kaha aander aa jao bheeg jaaoge usne kaha  I love barish….

Mai apne room pr tha ab barish baand hone ke baad Rahul apne room pr chala gya…….

Do hafte ho gye the mujhe shift kiye mera routine yahi tha office fir room pr…..

Ek din office ke baad room pr aaya to dekha abhishek bahar tha…..

Usne ek achchi si smile di aur maine bhi….

Kahta hai mai yahan se nikal rha tha to Socha milta chala. ….

Hm log room pr gye . ..

Maine chai bnayi usne btaya wo ek civil engineer hai…..

Aaj bhi mausam barish wala tha….

Aur halki bunda bandi ho rhi thi wo chhajjhe pr aagya wo barish me khel rha tha aur mai use dekh kr kush ho rha hai…

Wo ek ajeeb si khushi thi…..

Tbhi room ki bell baji gate khola to samne Rahul aur vikky the….

Rahul ne kaha Tune abhi tk chai aur paukode nhi bnaye dekh barish hone wali hai….

Maine kaha tum barish me bheego mai tyaar krta hu ohk…..

Mai kitchen me tyari krne lga aur apne atit ke panno me jhaak rha tha….

Abhishek ab roj aane lga tha bahut si baate hm me same thi wo apna room ka mere sath rahne lga tha . ….

hm dono ne kbhi ek dusre ko nhi kaha tha pr hm dono ek dusre ki parawah krte the…..

Sath me ghumna movie dekhna hme dusre ki company achchi lgti thi aur Rahul bahut kush tha mujhe lekar na Jane wo 3 mahine kaise guzar gye pta hi nhi chala un 3 mahino me hm ek dusre ko chahne lge the…..

Ek saam maine abhishek ke liye chai bnayi wo aaya usne kaha mera kaam ab kuch hi Dino ka bacha hai uske baad mai apne hometown bhopal chala jaunga….

Us din ki chai mujhe aachchi nhi lgi mai puri raat so nhi paya…..

Finally wo din aaya…..

Jb abhi ko jana tha shaam ko uski train thi mn kah rha tha ki ek baar bol kr dekhu shayad ruk jaye…..

Aaj bhi mausam achcha barish hone wali thi wo ja chuka tha mai jhhaajhe pr khada tha Soch rha tha sayad abhi ayega aur peeche pakad kr kahega…..

 meri rooh to tum ho tumhare bina kaisa…..

Pr wo ja chuka tha…….

Mai us raat bahut roya…..

Rahul ne mujhe mere atit se waapas laya kaha kahan kho gye ho saari chai ubal gyi…..

Rahul ne kaha usne ek saal se tere koi email ka jawab nhi diya na….

Mera sar jhuk gya tha Rahul ne kaha ek saal ho gye bhool ja use aur zindagi me aage badh…..

Ye tera laptop khula tha…..

kb tk khud se bhagta firega……

Itna kah kr wo jhhaajhe pr chala gya barish tez ho rhi thi us waqt mera dil aur aankhe dono ro rhi thi……

Maine gas band ki aur jhhaajhe ki taraf chal diya….

Ankhe band ki aur barish me bheegne ko nikla vikky ne kaha tujhe to barish pasand nhi hai na to kyu aaya….

Maine Rahul ki taraf dekha aur kaha 

Anshu nhi dikhenge 

I hate Barish…….

Bheege khat

2012.

Arts collage me ek nayi charcha thi.ye baate ho rhi thi aise riste ki jo hr kisi ke samajh se pare tha.

Ye rishta tha sudhir aur tanmay ka ek aisa rishta tha jo kisi naam ka mohtaaz tha.

Naam mila pr ek ke khatam hone ke baad.kya koi itna pyaar bhi kr sakta hai kisi se…

Sudhir science ka student tha aur tanmay arts ka collage me uske aur sudhir ke riste bahut baate hoti thi…

Log glt bhi kahte the pr tanmay aur sudhir ek dusre ko ek dusre ki company achchi lgti thi….

Ye baat jb ghr tk pahuchi to tanmay bhikhar sa gya tha….

Dec 2012.

Us raat tanmay kuch kagaz ke tukde le kr nikl gya tha ghr se.tanmay ne atmhatya kr li thi us bridge se kood kr…..

Papa ko kbhi bhi pasand nhi aaya tha mera arts padhna papa hmesha se computer padhana chahte the….

Aur mera mn kuch likhne ka hota to hr roj diary likhta tha.arts me achche nmbr nhi aa paye the vajah pta nhi kya thi pr mn hi nhi lgta tha…

To papa ke tane sun ne ke bajaye ghr chhod diya tha aur ek private school me bachcho ko art shikhane lga.pr aaj wo bhi job chali gyi thi school walo ka kahna tha bachcho ko art ab computer se sikhayenge papa ki baat maan liye hote to berozgaar na hote chalo koi baat nhi….

Fir yaad aaya ki makaan malik ko kiraya dena hai wo bhi do mahine ka aaj to wo jaan le lega meri.

Ghr se alag hone ki wajah kuch aur thi meri ek aisa rishta tha jo ankaha tha maine hr kisi se.

1 mahine ho gye the pr job ka kuch ata pta nhi tha Soch rha tha ki suicide kr lu pr mere bhi kuch sapne the jaise ki apna ek masterpiece bnana art me aur usi ko lekar sath suicide krne ka plan tha.pr meri ek dairy bhi to thi.use aur ek canvas ko lekar nikal pada tha.

Apne masterpiece ki talash me bridge ke kinaare ek ped ke niche baitha tha samay yahi koi 5 baje the tbhi ek 23 ka ladka bridge pr aaya kya chehra tha dhaalte suraj ki sunahari lalima uske chehre pr pad rhi thi wo us bridge me kuch kagaz ke tukdo ko fek rha tha jb tk mai pahuch wo ja chuka tha.

Canvas pr upar ke rang bhar diye the….

Dusre din fir mai nikla diary aur canvas le kr ki aaj mera masterpiece ready ho jayega. Pr intzaar krte krte shaam ho gyi thi.pr wo ladka nhi aaya.

Wapas room pr aa gya tha mai. Kuch raate aisi thi meri zindangi ki jo bahut kaali thi…

Maine apni zindagi ko dairy ke hr panne pr utara tha hr sach bayan kiya tha…

Hr wo anubhav tha meri zindangi ka aur…………

Agle subah fir nikle the apna canvas lekr pr dairy to mai bhool gya tha wahi bed pr.

Mn me Socha masterpiece to bne fir dairy le kr kr le.

Aaj ka din bhi nikal gya tha intzaar me.

Khidki ke bahar dekh rha kitna shant hai pr mere mn me uthal puthal thi.zindangi jee nhi pa rha tha mai lg rha tha ki sb kuch khatam ho gya pr ek umeed thi ki shayad zindangi sambhal sakta tha wo pr wo bhi kho gya tha kahi.

Ab to agli subah ka intzaar tha ye mna bhi raha tha kl ke baad na uthu mai hatash tha zindangi se.

Agli subah ho gyi thi canvas le kr nikla tha.dairy wahi rakhi thi takiye ke paas.

Shaam ho gyi thi 5 bajne wale the bhagwaan ne meri sun li thi meri wo ladka fir yahan tha maine awaz lgayi wo ek tuk paani ki taraf.wo kuch liye tha hath me sayad fir kagaz ke tukdo ko fekne aaya tha.

Mai ab uski bai taraf khada tha dhaalte suraj ki sunahari lalima uske chehre pr pad rhi thi aur bahut manmohak lg rha tha…

Tum bilkul  nhi badle manmay room pr gya tha room pr itne sare jaale aur chai ke itne saare kullhad kya ho gya hai tumhe.

Wo ladka meri taraf palta aur kaha kyu manmay kyu nhi roka tha tumne tanmay ko wo tumhara chhota bhai tha us raat tum bhi to the yahan aur kyu nhi roka use tum jante the na wo kitna pyaar krta tha mujhse.

Ye ladka aur koi nhi sudhir tha aur us raat tanmay sudhir ke diye letter fek rha tha…

Mai yahi tha us raat aur tanmay bhi wo keh gya tha sudhir ko mujhe bhulwa dena. Tanmay ne mujhe dhakka de kr gira diya tha aur usne jhalang lga di bridge.

Sudhir mai tumhare aur tanmay me khilaaf nhi tha bs log nhi samajh pate tumhare aur uske riste ko.

Usne rote hue mere hath meri dairy pakadayi aur kaha maine sb padh liya maine use gale lga liya tha usne rote hue kaha aapne kyu nhi btaya ki aap tanmay ke bhai hai Kyu chhupaya manmay.

Mai chup tha koi sabd nhi the mere paas mai neeche pani me dekha to mere bhai ka bheege khat beh rhe the.

Maine kaha sudhir se mai tumhare tanmay ko bacha nhi paya bs.

Ek baat usne kahi thi wo yaad hai ki tumhe hmesha khush dekhna chahta tha. Aur kaha tha.

ishq ishq hota hai uska ko gendar ya dharm nhi hota.

Hm dono pure ho kr bhi adhure the.