Do alag sadakein

Ye baat tb ki Jb mai engineering Ke sapno Ko pura kr hi chuka tha….

3 saal se topper hi tha aur 12 me president medal bhi mila tha Papa bade shuak se ristedaaro Ko dikhate the…..

Mera naam dheeraj hai aur sb mujhe dheeraj ji bulate hai wo kahte hai na ki umr se pahle samman aur jyada gyan dono hi achcha nhi hota….

Log mujhe matured maante the aur hostel ya hostel ke kisi bhi ladke Ko koi problem hoti thi to mujhse hi kahte the kyunki wo mujhe apne deemag se jyada paripakya maante the…

Koi bolta tha dheeraj ji meri girlfriend ne chhod diya ya dheeraj ji mere boyfriend ne chhod diya…..ya kbhi hostel ki koi dikkat….. 

Dheeraj ji ye dheeraj ji Wo dheeraj ji yahan dheeraj ji wahan be yahi sb chalta tha……

Un Dino meri adat baki ladko ki tarah nhi thi jo hr waqt C.S ki ladkiya dekhne ya chhutti pr mall ja kr kapde khareedne ka…

Mai to meerut se lucknow aaya tha apni electrical engineer ki padhai krne…..

Yahan kisi ne mujhe ye nhi kaha ki mai old fashion hu pr meri class ke hi ladko ka respectfull behaviour mujhe kbhi kbhi pareshan krta tha…..

Aur is se mai akela sa hota ja rha tha mujhe dost chahiye the apna grup bnana tha aur unke sath collage ke campus me tahlna chahta tha…..Mere classmate jo the wo classmates km chhote bhai behan jyada the isliye guardian ki tarah jyada pesh hona padta tha…..

Akhiri semester se pahle fir ek baar collage fest aa gya tha lgta tha ek baar fir sb nach rhe hoge aur mai apne hostel ke room me hunga kbhi kbhi lgta tha ki mai inloge se alag hu….

isliye in logo ki tarah mujhe apni collage life enjoy nhi mujhe to bs padhna hai aur padhna hai….

Kuch na kr pane ka tark shayad tark nhi hota wo ek dilasha hota jo khud Ko deta hai…..

Mera roommate rajat fest me hone wale natak ke audition dene ja rha tha halaki usne kbhi acting nhi ki thi isliye wo thoda dara hua bhi tha…..

Mere samne aa kr bola plz dheeraj ji chaliye na meri bahut na nakur ke baad bola u need to change dheeraj ji….

Change ke chahat me mai agle din rajat ke sath chalne Ko tyaar ho gya…

Mai aur rajat audition ke pahuche hi the ki sb apni baari ka wait kr rhe the….

Natak mechanical branch ka ek grup krta tha aur wo fest me first aata tha….

Theatre director vikram sharma apni mehangi gadi se nikalte hi chillaya…

Don’t waste your time we huv only one role left nd that for male…….

Us pr rajat bola dheeraj ji vikram…

Vikram kitna cute hai ye role mujhko Ko mil jaye fir dekhna natak ke hero se uska hero bn ne me der nhi lgegi…..

Dheeraj ne kaha cute bilkul Bandar dikhta hai….khud Ko kahan ka hero samajhta hai jo sb se chilla ke gya hai…..

Mai rajat Ko all the best keh kr nikal hi rha tha ki peeche se awaz aayi……

Neeli shirt kya keh rhe the mujhe ghamand hai. Ghamand hai mujhe agr mai Bandar hu to tum kahan ke hero ho…

Asaan kaam lgta hai kr loge acting…

Pahli baar peechle do saalo me kisi ne itne badtameezi se baat ki thi…

Itna rude itne gusse me.

Mujhe bhi gussa aa gya aur bola ha bolo kya krna hai tb kya mujhe ek kagaz pakda diya gya aur log mere angrezi ke hindi numa action pr has rhe the…

Mn me khyaal aaya aaj ka din to bejeiti divas ghosit kr dena chahiye…..

Pahle vikram fir ye collage walo ki hasi….

Aaj ki hui ghatna yaad aate hi lgta tha ki dheeraj ye duniya tere jaiso ki nhi hai duniya unki hai jo dikne me cool ho handsome ho aur tum to….

Tbhi darwaze pr knock hua dekha to rajat tha….

Dheeraj ji Wo role. Mujhko mil gya vikram is so impressed aur suniye kl chal rhe hai hm.

Maine kaha rajat tu hi jana mai nhi 

Are aapko ana hi padega wahan Dr lgta hai mujhe…

Rajat ki is zidd ke Aage jhukna pada mujhe…..

Theek hai rajat ab tu soja aur mujhe padhne de mera table lamp on hi tha padh to kitab rha tha pr chapter vikram wala hi chal rha tha jahan sb mujhe itni respect dete hai aur ye chill kr Chala gya…..

Pr ek baat achchi thi ki aaj usne bhimujhe ji nhi kaha koi aisa hai jo wo kisi aur Ko treat krta ho….

Yahi soch kr sone ki koshish krne lga……

Kl Jb gya to peeche se awaaz aai kl ke liye sorry kl bahut jyada hi bol gya maine kaha nhi maine hi apko bhala bura kaha tha I should be sorry…..

Usne puchcha kahan se ho maine kaha ji meerut…

Usne kaha tumhare yahan muskurane pr tax lgta hai kya….

Usne puchcha chai peeoge maine kaha OK isi bahane dheeraj tum maaf bhi kr doge ye pahli baar tha ki mai canteen me chai akele nhi kisi se sath pee rha hu…….

Mai soch rha tha ki ye chai khatam hi na ho kai baar maine jhuth chuskiya bhi canteen me sb dua salaam kr rha tha aur vikram sb se mera intro….

Ye dheeraj hai pahli baar koi ji nhi bol rha tha achcha lg rha hai…..

Usne kaha dheeraj chai ke paise tumhare maine kaha chai ke liye tumne puchcha tha…..

Usne kaha oye blue shirt fir jhagda mt kr wahan canteen me uski baato pr jawab dena ka koi tuk nhi tha…..

Tbhi canteen me paise diya aur Chala gya….

Room pr pahuche to mobile pr msj pada tha…

Likha tha blue shirt kl ki chai meri taraf se…

Maine puchcha mera nmbr kahan se mila…

Jawab mila pta kr lo….

Thodi der baad msj aaya jyada sochcho mt rajat se mila….

Maine koi jawab nhi diya…

Mai kitab ke panne palat rha tha ki yahi soch me ki kl jana bhi hai ya nhi….

Fir khyaal aaya ki exam aur percentage ye sb mere chart or deemag me ek anti virus ki tarah kaam kr rhe the….

Aaj 5 baj chuke the chahte hue bhi Jane ki himmat nhi kr paya….

Na Jane ki wajah se na koi call na msj mn me chal rha tha ki chai pe bulaya bhi aur na puhucha to koi farq bhi nhi pada……

Na koi msj na call mn udas tha….

agle din kl collage gya to ek classmate ne ek parchi di likha tha blue shirt kl kyu nhi aaye…..
Tbhi ek msj aaya blue shirt 5 baje canteen aur chai…..

Aaj jana kaise miss kr deta ye shaam ki chai…

Ab ye sil sila ho gya tha.aaj badi himmat kr ke puchch hi liya tum pr to itne ladke marte hai to mai hi kyu.

Usne kaha apki pahli baar muslurahat pr hi Mr mite the hm fir to collage ka campus ki hr jagah ghumte the…

Mai alag hi duniya me tha wo mujhe muture ki tarah treat nhi krta mujhse mazak aur mere se mazak krta tha……

Aur yahi sb mujhe achcha lg rha tha.

Dono collage bunk krte fir collage ke peechhe baagh me amrood khate the

Kbhi dusre Ko pakdte the…

khoob masti krte the aisa lgta tha bachpan me the…

Yahi sb kuch krna chahta raat bhr ut patank chizo ki list aur din bhr krna.

Wo angrezi me ek kahawat hai na all good things come in end….

Mujhe bhi yahi lgta tha ki ye khushi kuch waqt ki to nhi….mai badal rha tha ya waqt jin cheezo se mujhe chid hoti thi wahi cheeze ab kr rha tha….

Ab class me km aur garden me jyada mn lg tha kyunki ab mai apne aap Ko kisi se km nhi samajhta tha…

Ab canteen me sbki nazaro se chhup kr use ankh maarne ki himmat aa gyi thi.

Ek raat vikram 11 baje usne call ki shayad usne pi rakhi thi mere hostel ke room me aa gya tha un Dino rajat bhi nhi tha….

Puri raat mujhe neend nhi aayi Jb subah vikram room se gya sb mujhe aur use ghoor rhe the….

Ek din shaam Ko hostel puhucha to rajat kasim aur vikky meri hi baat kr rhe the wo bhi meri tarah the…

Keh rhe the hme pta kaise tumne vikram pr dore daale hai rajat ne kaha kahan wo handsome cool aur kahan tum.

Tum vikram ke liye nhi bane us din bahut bhala bura bola rajat ne..

Apne room per yahi soch rha tha ki shayad rajat sahi kyunki mai uske liye nhi hu Aur uska mazak nhi bnte nhi dekh sakta wo bhi meri wajah se..

Tbhi vikram ka call aa tha itni himmat nhi thi ki uska call pick kr Pau.mn me khyaal bs do mahine ki to baat hai do mahine baad exam fir placement aur sb apni apni jagah….

Ye baat maine vikram Ko btayi to use pta tha ki mera focus sirf padhai pr hai usne muskura kr ha me kr di….

Wo do mahine meri Zindangi sbse lambe aur kharab din the exam ke baad farewell tha sb apni photo me sajon rhe the aur mai sbse khoobsurat lamha jo vikram ke sath photo khichwa rha tha…

Vikram ne puchcha ab Aage…

Badi himmat ki thi isi din ke liye jo kahna tha wo kahta gya…

Vikram mai  tumhare liye nhi hu tumhe aisa banda chahiye jo tumhari tarah ho cool ho handsome ho aur kahan mai boring mai to good looking bhi nhi hu…..

Maine kaha hm do alag sadakein kisi chaurahe pr mil bhi gye to kya hm dono ki alag disha hai……

Is baat Ko huye char saal ho gye aaj fest ka invitation dekha to ye sb yaad aa gya jaise aaj puri purani yaado me lgi barf pighal gyi thi.

na Jane us din maine itna kuch kahne ke baad is din ki kalpna nhi ki thi…

Hm wakai do alag sadakein the.

 invitation tha mere collage se lucknow se mere pati ke naam…

Vikram dheeraj sharma….

9 saal se wo ek sawal....

Aaj 9:15 pr mai apne writer dost ke yahan uske Naye 3bhk ghr ki party me tha. Anjaan 120 logo ke sath...

Jb mai aur abhay is party me aa rhe the to Khambhat radio jockey ne wo gana baja diya tha...

Tu hi tu hi re tere bina mai kaise jiu....

Aur ab is gaane ko gane wala mere 9 saal baad mere samne tha anmol wo mujhse kuch 12 meter ki duri pr tha....

Mere abhay ek mechanical engineer wo bahut achche in 9 saalo me unhone mujhe bakhubhi samajha...mujhe 6 baje uthana mujhe dopahar me lunch ke liye puchchna na Jane kaise unhe meri hr zarurat ka pahle se pata chal jata hai....

Mere ek office colleague ne introduce krwaya sir meet my bf anmol...

Hmne anjaano ki tarah hath milaya uske chehre me ek jhoothi muskan thi...

Maine man socha jo mera na ho paya mere dost ka ho kr mere samne khada tha....

Tbhi abhay apne hath me liye soft drink aa gye maine introduce kraya meet my love abhay....

Wo abhay Ko dekh rha tha aur abhay usko...

Thodi der baad abhay Ko koi apna dost dikh gya aur wo Chala gya aur mera wo dost bhi...

9 saal baad aaj hm pair aamne samne khade the..

Maine us se puchcha ki us raat 9 baje tum kyu nhi aaye the mai wahi magazine stall ke bahar tumhara 6 gante intzaar krta tha pr tum nhi aaye.....

Tbhi meri jaise neend tooti ho waiter ne puchcha sir will u huv some chilli paneer....

To paya mai khud se puchcha rha tha anmol to mujhse dur khada tha uske paas gya aur wo nazaro jhukaye hue tha maine fir sawal kiya us raat tum kyu nhi aaye the....

Usne kaha kuch jawabo ke liye kbhi koi sawal nhi hote...

Usne puchcha kaise ho tum..

Maine fir wahi sawal puchcha kyu nhi aaye the US raat tum....

Usne abhay ki taraf dekh kr kaha achcha hai wo...aur anmol Chala gya tha..

Tbhi abhay jo hme dekh rhe the unhone paas aa kr kaha jante ho kya unhe maine nhi me jawab diya....

Mujhe achche se yaad hai ye wahi ladka tha jo ghr me bahana ya jhooth bol kr mujhse milne aata tha...

Kya ye wahi ladka jo collage ke baad tution ka bol kr mere sath film dekhne aata tha...

Kya ye wahi anmol hai jo rang wahi rang pehnta tha....

Kuch der thahar kr fir anmol ke paas tha maine uski nazaro me dekh kr wahi sawal kiya....

Ye bhi puchcha ki ki tum wahi anmol ho na jo mere zara si chot pr pura ghr utha lete the...

Usne meri or dekhte hue kaha mai apke dost shashank ke sath hu tbhi wahan abhay aa gye unhone puchcha ki aap log ek dusre Ko pahle se jante hai is pr usne jawab diya nhi ye mujhe kuch aur samajh rhe hai galatfaimi hai inki.....

Tabhi anchor ne truth aur dare game ka naam liya...

Ji ha ye ek aisa game Jisme 12 log apne samne hote hai aur beech me ek bottle ghumayi jati jiski taraf aa jaye us se truth ya dare....

Party dheere dheere garam ho rhi thi....

Kareeb 20 minute baad 

Mera nmbr aaya aur maine apne dost ke partner yani anmol se sawal kiya...

Ki kya apko shashank se pahle bhi kisi se pyaar tha..

Party ki gunj ek dum se khamoshi me badal gyi...

Unhone jawab diya nhi maine sirf shashank Ko hi pyaar kiya hai....

Wapasi me 20 minute tk khamosh raha mn us raat ka khyaal aaya...

9 saal pahle anmol ne btaya ki uski shaadi krna chahte hai maine anmol se kaha chalo bhag chalte hai...

Mai 9 baje kanpur central ke platform 1 pr 9 se 3 baje tk intzaar krta rha pr wo nhi aaya dheere dheere platform sunsaan hota ja rha tha sb apne safar Ko nikal pade the wo sardi ki thithurti raat mai lakdi ki bench pr baitha rha jaise jaise raat ho rhi bheed km ho rhi thi platform pr sote hue musafir the jisko na kahi jana na aana mai in me se hi tha.. .

Kash us raat tum aa gye hote to aaj gadi me abhay tum hote....

Abhay ne sawal kiya kya hua bahut chup chup ho maine jawab diya nhi to kuch nhi hua.....

10 minute ki khamoshi ke baad achannak abhay bol pada 

Mai janta hu ki tum mujhse pyaar  nhi krte ye wahi anmol hai na ek baar glti se tumhari dairy padh li thi wo kitabo ke beech uske panno me rakhe wo sukhe phool aur wo Khat jo tumne Atul Ko likhe the pr kisi pate pr bhej nhi paye the tum aur wo tumhara ek sawal....

9 saal se is ek raat ka intzaar kiya hai shubh ki tumhe  tumhare sawal ka jawab mil jaye....

Aur mai ye bhi janta hu ki hr saal 15 December Ko hm bahar khana khane kyu jate hai anmol ka birthday celebrate krte hai....

Mai uske samne nazaro jhukaye baitha tha ankho me pani aa rha tha aaj mera dil aur ankh dono ro rhi thi....

Us se nazare milane ki himmat nhi ho rhi thi ki 9 saal se sb janta hai fir bhi....

Tbhi mere mobile baja dekha to ek email aaya hua tha anmol ka tha..

Likha tha....

Us raat isliye mai nhi aa paya kyunki tum mujhe paglo ki tarah pyaar krne wale ashiq to bn sakte the pr Zindangi bhr sath nibhane wale ek achche pati nhi....

Isme koi shak nhi ki tum ek achche pyaar krne wale nhi bs tum ek achche pati nhi bn sakte the....

Abhay bahut achcha tumse bahut pyaar krta hai....

Shayad aaj 9 saal baad ek pati bn jaao....

Maine mobile neeche rakha aur gadi side me lgai aur abhay ka hath pakda aur apni nm ankhe uski ankho me daal kr kaha....

Jo kbhi 9 saalo me nhi kaha tha....

Abhay I love you thank you for being my love...

Thank you for everything.....

Love u lot.........❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

17 saal ka pyaar

Tumhe yaad hai Jb tum class me pahli baar aaye the tum khidki se bahar dekh rhe kuch.mai bag rakh ke Chala gya tha tumne palat ke bhi nhi dekha tha mujhe…

Class me tumhari bench aur meri bench me ek hath ka fasla tha. Maine khud naapa tha….

Kyunki kai baar tumhe chhune ki koshish ki thi….

Us din yaad hai Jb tum kuch padh rhe to maine tumhe disturb kr diya tha aur tumne mujhe apni angaaro wali ankho se dekha that….

Us din hi faisla kr diya tha ki tumhe apna bna kr rha hu…

Tumhe yaad hai Jb school me shobhan sarkar gye the aur wahan wo andheri gufa thi…sb ek dusre takra rhe the anjaane me ya jaan bhoojkr aur tum bada sambhal kr chal rhe the….

Na jaane kyu aaj atit itne saalo baad Aage aa khada tha aur would sb yaad aa rha tha….

Aaj 47 saal baad sb ek dum achannak yaad aa rha tha sayad us pl me tha kuch aisa… 

Tumhe yaad hai Jb pahli baar tumne mujhse baat ki pr mere mn me tumhare liye kuch aur hi tha….

Mai bhi dheet tha tumhare hi ghr ke samne khada hota tha shaam Ko….

Intzaar krta tha tumhare chchajje se bahar aane ka kbhi aate aur kbhi nhi….

Fir ek din himmat kr ke bta diya tumhe

Ki shubh I love u pasand krta hu tumhe..

tumne meri taraf dekhte hue kaha tha…

 Ye sirf ek attraction hai aur kuch nhi…

Tumne maano mere Pyaar Ko gaali de di ho fir tum mujhse dur rhne lge the….

Ab hm 11 me the aur ab hme apne subject chun ne the…

tumhe ek doctor bnana tha aur mujhe to tumhare alawa kuch aur samajh nhi aata tha.

11 me ek ladka aaya tha satyam naam ka wo bhi bio padta tha aur tum bhi Jb tum dono sath me baithte the mujhe bahut gussa aata tha pr kbhi kbhi lgta tha tum mujhe jalane ki koshish krte the…

Sach hai na ye shubham….

Tum class ke un bachcho me the jinhe teacher Pyaar se samajhate the….

Ki dur rhna siddharth jaise awara ladko se aur tumne kah bhi diya tha ek din ki sahi kahti archana mam tum na khud padhte ho na dusro Ko padhne dete ho…

Us din to archna mam ki schooty ke dono pahiyo ki hawa aur tall light fod di thi….

Tumhe to pta tha ki kisne kiya hai ye sb… 

11 pura hua 12 aa gya tha tumhe yaad hai 5 Sept Ko tumhara favourite colour blue shirt pahni thi…

Aur tumne kaha tha ki tumhara favourite colour green hai…..

Us din satyam green colour ki check shirt pahn kr aaya tha us pr ink phek di thi…

Bechara satyam…….

12 Ko akhiri waqt tha usne btaya ki satyam ne mere aur apne selection ke liye vrat rakha hai us din mn kiya usko ink ki bottle me ghused ke ganga ji me fek aau…..

Tumhare 12 me theek thak marks aaye the aur mai second division paas.. 

Collage me tumne bsc. Li bio se aur maine arts.

Tum mn lga kr padhai krte the aur mai mera mn kahi aur tha…..

Tumhe disturb bhi bahut krta tha kbhi tumse ghumne Ko kahta kbhi bike pe highway pr long drive pr chalne Ko..

Tumne ek din kah hi diya mujhe mere carrier pr dhyaan dene do us din soch liya tha tumhare carrier ke Aage meri koi value nhi khoob roya tha us raat ko….

Waqt Ko maano pankh lg gye the tum medical collage jaane ke liye form bhr rhe the tumne 2 baar form check kiya tha….

Tum Jb andar lifafa lene gye the to maine apni Zindangi ki sbse badi bhool ki uska parinaam nhi socha….

Tumhare form ko jahan jahan jagah thi wahan glt salat bhr diya….

Pachchtawa bhi hua pr ye soch kr khush tha ki tum kahi jaa nhi paaoge….

Pr………

Tumne milne ki koshish nhi ki to maine khud hi tumhare ghr aa gya….

10 minute ki khamoshi ke baad tumne kaha mujhe delhi me collage mila hai….

Tumne aur bhi kuch kaha tha ki kuch log kbhi badal nhi sakte…..

Tum delhi aa gye the aur mai wahi kanpur me…

Na tumne milne ki koshish ki na maine milne ki himmat….

Tbhi nurse ne kaha call the doctor shubh Srivastava wo ek naam maano meri atit ki sari galtiya bta rha ho…

Mera appendix fracture hua tha mn me tha kya sare jahan ke doctor Mr gye hai jo wahi sirf bacha hai….

Dard bahut ho rha tha anshu bhi aa rhe the pr ye anshu Dard ke nhi the…

Mn me khyaal tha ki itna pareshan kiya hai ki wo mujhe maar dalega…

Tbhi halki roshni me shubh dikhayi pada….

Maine kaha…

Now ball is in your court doctor do whatever you want to do….

Usne mere sir pr hath rakha aur itne sneh se kaha kaise ho siddharth…

Mere anshu ruk hi nhi rhe the itna Pyaar se kaha tha tb kahan tha ye Pyaar Jb…….

Usne mujhe aaj bhi mera carrier Pyaara hai…..

Operation ke 2 gante baad hosh aaya…..

Pr shubh nhi tha wo ja chuka tha khush tha ki meri galtiyo ko usne maaf kr diya pr ye puchch nhi paya……

                              By.

                                    Siddharth srivastava

Dooriya....

Dur khstiz me suraj doob rha tha aur mai bhi doob Jana chahta tha maano sagar ki thapak thapak lahre ufaan maar rhi thi maano keh rhi ho baaho ke samete tumhara to intzaar tha aur mai chalte chalte mai kinaare se dur aa gya tha ek lambi saans li aur sagar ki gehrai me Jane lga paani ka dabaaw aur ek saans ke sath apne aap ko sagar me kho jana chahta tha ki tbhi kisi ne meri baayi kalai pakdi aur upar le aaya mere hatho me jasmine ki maala thi aur wo pani kamar tk paani me tha shayad kinaare pr hosh aaya to dekha koi mere aas paas nhi tha bs basuri ki dhun sunayi de rhi thi....
Dekha to ek parchchai saaf chehra le rhi thi wo muskurahat se dekhta hue jà rha tha ....

mai uske peeche peeche chalne lga tha wo church ki sediyo me baitha basuri baja rha tha...

Maine father se uske baare me puchcha to unhone kaha ye varun hai nishant ka varun.....

Varun hmari basti sabse achcha tairak aur iski mohhbbat tha iske bachpan ka dost nishant.....

ye dono hmari basti ki jaan the jis nishant varun ko muskurahat se vida nhi krta tha wo din varun ka the aur ek theek nhi jata tha....

basti ke hr jashn me varun basuri bajata tha aur nishant bs use muskurahat se dekhta rahta tha....

Maine father se puchcha to varun ki ye halat aur nishant kahan hai....

Father ne kaha nishant bahut dur hai varun se ab...

Father isa ki murti ki aur dekh rhe the aur ek mombatti ki taraf dekhte hue kaha...

Jante ho beta nishant ke father ne hmari basti sabse mahnga suit khareeda tha nishant ke liye...

5th may ko shaadi hone wali thi aur 3rd may ko nishant ne varun ko beach pr bulaya tha...

Mn me khyaal aaya ki itna bebak shaadi ke do din pahle milne ko bula liya...

Father ne kaha nishant riti reevazo se mukt tha wo maanta tha pr jb tk use sahi lge....

Mn me khyaal aaya ye to bilkul meri hi tarah tha sb cheezo free rakhna chahte hu duniya daari ki koi parwah na krna....

 3rd may raat ko nishant Peter ki naaw se tek lga ke khada tha varun aaya....

Nishant kyu bulaya varun ne puchcha....

Nishant ne varun ka hath pakda aur kaha aaj se pahle jb tum sagar me jaate to mai kinaare se khade hokar dekhte tha..

Meri khawhais hai aaj tum dekho mujhe muskuraate hue..varun ko pata tha jo usne ek baar thaan liya wo karke rahta hai...

Varun mna krna chahta tha pr nishant ne hontho pr hontho rakh diye aur kaha varun jb mai light house ke paas honga to lalten hilaunga tum tairate hue aana mere paas....

Jb tk varun kuch kahta tb wo naaw ke chuppu chalane lga tha.

Varun us din sagar se prey kr rha tha.

Sagar mujhe mera nishant sahi salamat chahiye....

Varun nishant pasandeeda dhun..

Sakuntla taleni mukundan.

Dheere dheere varun apni basuri ki dhun se tez apne dadkan sunayi de rhi thi...

Wo awaze lgaye ja rhe usko pta tha ki us tk nhi pahuche ki..

Mn hi mn mai bhi nishant ki salamati ki dua maangne lga tha..

Father ne kaha beta jaisa hm chahte hai waisa ho jaruri nhi beta..

Basuri ki dhun ab sunayi nhi de rhi thi..

Father ne kaha nishant wapas nhi aya varun tairate hue gya jiska Dr tha wahi hua naaw ulti padi thi jb basti walo ko pta chala to sb koi dhundh rhe the...

Kahte hai samundr kuch bhi apne paas nhi rakhta sb wapas kr deta...

Aaj bhi varun samundr ke kinaare baitha nishant ka intzaar krta hai...

Maine church ke bahar Jane lga to peeche peeche father bhi aa gye...

Mai mn hi mn Soch rha ki aaj samundr se mai nhi nishant nikalta to varun ke chehre ki muskaan bni rahti...

Mai fut fut kr ro rha tha ab kis tarah ki mohhbbat hai ye....

Isme dooriya ho kr bhi nhi hai ....

Father ne kaha maine kai baar kaha ki nishant ab nyi hai wo has kr kahta nishant mere paas nhi to door bhi to nhi mere zehn me basta hai wo....

Varun kahta hai mai usko awaaz dena kbhi band nhi karunga kbhi na kbhi to aayega mai intzaar karunga uska....

Maine hasne lga aur mn me Socha ki haan Rishton ko awaz dena bhi zaruri hota hai...

Maine isa ke samne sir jhukhaya aur apne room ki taraf chal pada mn me khyaal tha aaj abhi ko awaaz dunga kahunga chalo pahla pyar krte hai...

Room pr pahuch kr......

Abhi ka maine hath pakda aur kaha sorry...

Abhi ne kaha bahut din se baat krna chahta tha pr Dr rha tha...

Maine kaha mai tumhe samajhta hu mujhse Mt dra karo....

Maine abhi ko bahon me bhr kr chalo pahla pyaar krte aur dusri baar Krte hai....

Only a imagination I want someone to understand my love for him.....❤😊

Abhi kuch kahna chahta hu tumse sayad tum Jane se pahle ek din aur ruk jaate to mai samajha pata ki kitna pyaar krta hu...

Tum 9 ki bajaye 10 ko jate to samajha pata ki I love you....

Abhi chalo pahla pyaar krte aur ek dusre se ek baar aur Krte hai.....

शब्दों का अहम किरदार होता है,, दूरियां बढाने में....

कभी हम समझ नही पाते हैं, और कभी समझा नही पाते हैं.....

Do logo ka pyaar....

29 saal ka hu aur ab mere kamre me hr cheez apne jagah pr milti hai.waqt badal rha tha aur adat bhi. Meri shaadi ko 9 saal ho chuke hai.

Maine apni family aur dosto ko sachai bta rakhi thi apne baare me.jiski wajah se mere gharwale mere liye ladka dhundh rhe the….

Meri shaadi se pahle meri mammi kahti thi ki shaadi ke baad apna samaan faila kr Mt rakhna.

Maao ke paas bhavisya dekhne ki taqat hoti hai shayad…ma ne bahut kuch shikhaya tha mujhe meri shaadi se pahle…

Shaadi ke baad maine kisi ke baare me apne aap se pahle sochna seekh liya tha.apne roothe pati ko manana seekh liya tha ek achcha pita bnana seekh liya tha aur rote hue bhi hasna seekh liya tha….

Pr aaj nisant ke school aur rahul ke office ke Jane ke baad yahi Rahul ki study table pr baitha tha.mere samne pen pepar aur ek zehar ki sheeshi thi.jo bahut Dino se maine taad rakhi thi aur aaj is dophar use lekar baitha tha…

Is dophar ki kahani kai kai dophar pahle shuru hui thi.

Papa ka transfer hua tha kanpur dada ke ghr jaisa bada nhi tha ye 2 bhk flat me rahna seekh liya.dada ke ghr ke bageeche me tahlta tha pr yahan chhoti si balcony me jagah hi nhi thi itni…yahan peeche foolo ki kyariya nhi thi the to bs gamle….

Bahut kuch naya seekh liya tha ab mai yahan purane mohalle ki tarah chachi nhi aunty kahna seekh liya tha cycle se darta tha pr ab mai mopet chalana seekh liya tha.

Kanpur ke collage ki parking me mopet khadi krte waqt peeche se gadi ne horn diya dekha to raman tha hmse ek saal senior tha wo joint secretary tha aur collage president bnana chahta tha log use jante to the…kyunki chhote  seharo me dancing aur singing realty shows me hissa liye celebrities to nhi hote the…

yahi collage me Jane maane chehre hote the.aur inki duniya inhi ke ird gird hoti thi….

Aur raman hazar tareeko se jatata tha ki he likes me..thoda dabang type tha pr achcha tha…

Swastika tea staal me chai uthate waqt hath hm dono ke takra hi gye.tb se to milna julna shuru ho gya…

Dosto ne kaha bhi tha ki kisi anjaan se itna milna aur ma ne bhi ajnabi se baat krne se mna Kiya tha….

Pr raman anjaan nhi tha wo to mujhe janta tha achche se…

Dheere dheere hm logo ka yun bike me ghumna park me haath me hath daal kr talhana hm logo ki nazaro me aa rhe the.pr raman ko koi farq nhi padta tha dheere dheere sbko pta chal rha tha.

Raman nayi black color ki bike laya tha wo chahta tha sbse pahle mai baithu.hm bike pr baithe aur library ke samne se hote hue nikal gye.logo ke kaan hote hai aur ankhe to jarur hoti hai…

Ye baat ma ke satsang me ek aurat pta chali…

Shaam ko ghr aaya to maa ne itne zor se kaan kheeche to rona aa gya…

ma ne ek sauda kiya ki wo papa ko kuch nhi btyengi mai raman se milna chhod du.papa waise mere aise hone se pareshan the aur pareshan nhi Krna chahta tha unhe…

Raman fir mujhse milne ki koshish krta phone krta mai kahunga deti wo mandir gya hai wo paglo ki tarah hr mandir me mujhe dhundhta.

Ek din ghr ka nmbr change ho gya aur pta chala us din ke baad wo pyaar nhi mujhse nafrat krne lga tha. Bura admi bn gya tha bahut bura…

Graduatetion complete hue do saal ho gye the aur ab raman se milna chhod diya tha.rota tha bahut pr papa ke samne dikhata tha khush hu pr nhi tha mai us din raha nhi gya to raman ko phone kr ke kah diya mai ab nhi milunga tumse.raman khamosh tha fir kaha please ek akhiri baar mil lo seemant bs ek akhiri baar city heart guest house ke restautrent me.

Mai aaya raman bhi gussa tha raman mere is vyavhar se aur mujhse bhi.usne do nhi ek chai order ki jb waiter change lene gya to usne us ek foot ka dyra khatam kr ke mera hath tha am liya mano koi button daba diya ho mere ankho ke ashuo band tut gya ho. Raman ne kaha muh dholo thodi der baad hmare liye ek kamra khol diya gya kamre ka darwaza band krte hue mai lipat kr rone lga….

Meri Graduatetion ko 3 saal ho gye finally papa ko Rahul mile hme sath rahte 9 saal ho gye the.rahul bahut achche hai Din me Chahe kitna busy ho lekin ek baar phone kr ke jaroor puchchte the ki maine khana khaya nisant ne khaya ki nhi..Rahul bahut achche hai shayad romantic nhi hai…

Rahul ki photo me dekhne ke baad reality me dekha tha jb ghr pr hmari shaadi me.

Raman ko do seedhiyo pahle hi chhod aaya tha Rahul ke ghr ki jb seedhiya chhadi to.

Rahul ne apni zimmedaari in 9 saalo me bakhoobi nibhai…

Meri duniya me do log hi to the ab ek Rahul aur hmara beta nisant. nisant Rahul pr gya tha achcha hua mujh pr nhi gya.rahul ki tarah hosiyar class me first second hi aata hai..

Rahul ne nisant ko waada kiya tha ki ab ki baar first aaya to ek computer le kr denge wo ziddi aa gya…

Ab TV aur khel nhi sirf computer hi lga rahta hai ek din naste ke waqt kahta hai…

mujhse papa kitne hoshiyar aur aap budhu chalo computer seekho..

To ek din mera Facebook account bna diya gya maine to kah diya tu hi operate kr mujhe nhi aata ye sb..

Abhi 3 din pahle nisant rote hue aaya aur kaha ki apke fb pr kuch tasveere hai..

Mujhe pta tha wahan computer me meri ek yaad ka lamha dikh rha tha ye city heart ke kamre ki tasweer thi zisme mere baal ast vyast aur raman se bahon me mil kr rone ki tasweer me mujhe tag kiya gya tha purani tasweer ko scan kiya tha yaad ka lamha taaza tha… pr jhooth bol rhi thi tasveere…

Kisi anjaan ne kiya tha bahut se hote aise Internet ki duniya me.meri wo pic ek chain ki tarah ek dusre ko bhej rhe the aur has rhe the mai mazak bn chuka tha…

Kanoon ki dharaao me ek ye bhi jiske liye kisi kbhi saza nhi hoti.kisi ka charitra hanan character hasination…

Ye zehar ki sheeshi tumhe bhej rha hu raman pee lena hmne police me report kr di thi nikal pade hai tumhare shehar ki or shayad ye chhithi tumhe jail me mile…

Tumhare jaisa admi mera kuch nhi bigaad sakta Rahul ko sb kuch bta diya maine tum jitne bure ho wo utne hi achche.

Unhone mujhe samajha meri maryada ko samajha meri 9 saal ki tpsya ko samajha….

Tumse alag hone ke baad khud se waada kiya tha ab pyaar nhi karunga pr waada tod kr pyaar krna seekh rha hu…

Tum meri bhool the aur rahul mera pahla pyaar….

Chhithi aur sheeshi pack kr ke post office me de aaya 4 baje gye the deewar pr lgi meri Rahul aur nisant ki lgi tasweer dekh rha tha ankhe nam ho gyi thi..

Mn me ek khyaal tha ma ko sukriya kaha us din mere kaan khechne ke liye.

Aur dusra kitna farq do logo ke pyaar krne ke tareeke me…..

Rmzaani

Laiye hmari ramzani abbu…

Ye eidi to suni thi pr ramjani kya bla hai.abbu dijiye na…

Mia shamim ne kurte ki jeb se 100 rupaye nikaal kr wasim ke hath me rakh diye.

wasim ghr me sbse chhota tha aur sbse ladla bhi ammi ke sath khana bnawana.bazar jana aur ghr ke sare kaam bakhoobi aata tha.

Tbhi ghr ki bell baji wasim turant darwaaje ki taraf badha ki amir bhaijaan honge gate khola to imraan the.peeche mud kr dekha to lga abbu has rhe ho dekh kr.

Kaise ho wasim.theek hu maine roza iftaar ke liye meethe bhaat bnaye hai…

Imraan ne smile krte hue kaha theek hai….

Baat ek saal pahle ki hai jb imraan wasim ke bade bhai Amir se milne uske ghr aaya tha na Jane kya baat thi us din imraan usse kisi baat pr jhagda kr rha tha pr wasim ko aur uske hath me daal se bheega chamcha dekh Dr gya tha ya wasim Pahli nazar me ghr kr gya tha imraan ke.

Aur to aur wo jate jate Amir se maafi bhi maangi thi aur wasim ke dekh kr halki si muskurahat dete hu 9 2 11 ho gya…

Agle din wasim ke ghr ke samne wali dukaan me cigarette phook rha tha.wasim jhhaajhe me aaya aur dekh kr chala gya.

Fir wasim ko imraan apni bike pe dikh hi jata tha kbhi bazar me to kbhi ghr ki khidki se to kbhi collage se niklte hue.

Ek din himmat kr ke imraan ne puchch hi liya ki ghr tk chhod du wasim mna Kr ke auto me baith gya.dekha to imraan auto ke peeche peeche chal rhe hai us din waakai wasim ko bahut gussa aaya ye baat usne abbu se bhi btayi thi….

Pr ek mahine baad notice krte krte wo khud hi bazar me jhhola liye uski bike pr baith gya.

Ab to imraan khushi se phoole na samaye us din badi dheere chale rhe the waise to bike ka hawai jahaj chalate the pr aaj peeche wasim baithe the.ye pyaar bada ajeeb tha pr sachcha tha….

December me na Jane kyu wasim aur imraan ne ek sath rahne ka faisla kr liya…isi baat pr to bahut Behas hui thi wasim ke ghr me wasim ne sbki marzi ke khilaaf jake imraan ko chuna tha aur wo.

Present day..

Wo bhool gya tha ab uska pta Begum Ganj nhi rawatpur me tha flat no 709….

Jyada waqt nhi lgta use khana bnane aur do logo ka khana hota bhi kitna hai…

jitna km waqt bnane me lgta tha utna hi waqt khane me lgta tha na Jane kyu aaj bhi wasim ko apne abbu ki kahi baat ko lekar rota tha..

Ki is ghr se jayega to hmare liye Mr jayega kitni baar to imraan ke samne foot foot kr rone lgta tha…

Ramzaan ke mahine ka ek hafta ho gya tha iftaar ke liye bhaji sivaiyaan dhundhte dhundhte Begum Ganj ki bazaar aa gyi thi wo ghr yaad aagya abbu ka ghr….

Tbhi wasim ke peeche kisi ne hath rakha peeche dekha to chachi thi.wasim ki ankho me anshu aa gye ki puri tarah uska pariwaar bhula nhi hai use..

Chachchi ne kaha kaise ho wasim.jano jaise wasim ruh laut aayi ho. Usne kaha abbu kaise hai chachchi…

Theek hai pr roza nhi rakha unhone is baar wasim….

Kareeb do ghante tk ruka fir chachi ko apne ghr ka pta aur phone nmbr de kr chala aaya…

3 din beet gye the chachchi ne abbu se btaya hoga ki nhi….

Pachve din ghr ki bell baji gate khola to dekha to chachchi thi gate pr aur ghuste hi boli wasim ghr to bahut achcha hai tera chachchi shaam tk ruki aur chali gyi….

Imraan aa gye the ghr pr wasim ko sb kuch btaya diya tha….

Chachchi ne kaha hai ammi abbu ko bhi mnane ki koshish karegi..

Aaj itne Dino baad wasim khush tha aur use dekh kr imraan bhi.

Wasim ko apne tute hue pariwaar ko jodne ki umeed dikh rhi thi ek ajeeb si khushi thi uske dil me….

Din beet rhe the aur chachchi ka koi phone nhi aaya tha….

Alvida jumme se do roz pahle.

Chachchi aayi thi aaj to wasim ne kah diya tha imraan se mil kr jaiyega usko surprise denge shaam ko wo bhi bahut khush hoga Aur roza iftaar bhi unke sath kr lijiyega.

Chachchi se baate krte krte na Jane kb shaam ho gyi ghr ki bell baji gate khola to dekha imraan aur Amir bhaijaan the. imraan ne mujhe hi surprise kr diya tha.

Imraan ne kaha bazaar me Amir bhaijaan mile to ghr le aaya.

Amir ghr ke andar aaya aur deewar pe bachpan ki abbu ke sath photo dekh kr bola ghr to bahut achcha hai….

Imraan ne kaha roza khol kr jana wasim ne bhi kaha pr na chachchi ne kuch khaya aur na Amir bhaijaan ne..

Amir ne kaha tiffin ho to usme de de jb Amir jaane lga to usne 100 rupaye nikaale aur wasim ko dene lga wasim ne mna Kr diya…

Amir samajh gya tha itne saalo se sbse pahle ramzani ho ya eidi abbu se leta tha…

Amir ne chachchi se kaha ghr chalte hai chachchi ne btaya usne mere se bhi paise nhi liye milte hi sbse pahla sawal ye tha ki abbu kaise hai…

Amir ke ghr pr.

Amir ne tiffin ke meethe bhaat aage krte hue kaha abbu meri dost ki patni ne bnaye hai chakh kr dekhiye.samim ne hath me lete hi wo usme ilaiyachi ki mehak aur unhe wasim yaad aa gya tha apne anshu chhupate hue sb kha gye the wo meethe bhaat aaj apne sbse ladle ki yaad aa gyi thi unhe…..

Aaj Alvida zumma tha shaam ka waqt ho gya tha Amir aur uske abbu apne kaam se wapas aa rhe the. Amir ne bike ko rawatpur ki taraf mod diya…

Abbu ke puchchne pr btaya kisi se milna hai bs do minute ka kaam hai 15 minute me pahuch gye the flat no 709 ke samne…

Ghr ki bell baji wasim ko lga imraan honge jb gate khola to samne abbu the….

Wasim ke anshu ruk nhi rhe the usne abbu se kaha abbu mujhe ramjani de dijiye…

Ramzaani de dijiye.

Meri ramzani…..

Shamim shahab bhi apne ankho ke sailaab rok nhi paaye aur kurte se 100 ka note nikala aur matha chumte hue hath me rakh diye.

Ab wasim ko uski ramzani mil gyi thi shamim ne andar lgi tasweer ko dekh kr kaha ghr bahut achcha hai tumhara.

Wasim ne kaha abbu apke ghr jaisa nhi us se achcha ghr nhi hai ye. Pr na Jane kyu wasim ko ye ghr aachccha lg rha tha.

Jaate jaate shamim mia ne kaha  Ramzaan mubarak ho beta……..

Raas.....

Biscuit deeware aur mn me sb jagah silan hi to thi 3 din se Mumbai baras rha tha shaam ka waqt tha Socha aligarh ghr chala jaau to vikash ko call kr ke use parso mathura junction me aane ko kaha. Ye wahi shehar tha jahan maine apna collage kiya tha aur isi shehar me mera pyaar bhi mila tha.

Na Jane kaise aaj train mathura junction pr samay se pahle aa gyi thi.mai utra aur apne laptop ka bag tanga aur trolly tha chhota sa ab jyada kapde nhi achche lgte the utar kr vikash ko call kiya to wo so rhe the nikle bhi nhi the ghr se mai chai wale ke paas gya aur bolne wala tha ki ek awaz ne mujhe rok liya maano kaano me misri si ghul gyi ho….

Palat kr dekha to wahi chehra tha jis se mai na milne ki dua krta tha.wo amar tha usne meri taraf dekha aur kaha kaise ho shubh mai ankhe faad kr bs dekhe ja rha tha . maine kaha theek hu tum btao…

Yahan kaise ghr ja rhe ho maine kaha ha bahut din se aaya nhi tha.

Ye wahi chehra tha jo collage me mujhse nazare milate thakta nhi tha.

Yahi uske puchchne ka andaz tha jb mai apni class chhod kr uski class me chala jata tha..

Pr ab wo kashis nhi thi sawal me..

Maine kaha chai peete peete baat kare chai wale ne hme do kullhad de diye aur chai se ilaiyachi ki mehak ne wo 4 saal yaad dila diye the…

Usne kaha maine tumhari kahi padhi thi bahut achchi thi 

Tumhe achchi lgi Soch rha tha tumhe Soch kr hi to apne sabdo ko aakar deta hu.

Ha wo magazine nikal kr dikhane lga tha…

Door ek sajjan gamchha baadhe seek wali jhhadu se dhool aur kachra hta rha tha mere mn me tha ki ab hme jagah chhodna padega pr us sajjan ne mano meri mn ki baat sun li chai wale ne hme ek aur kullhad de diya.

Amar ne kaha mai pura nhi piyunga maine kaha chhod do.chahta tha ki sb bta du ki dekho tumhare liye maine haath kata tha aur tum kisi aur ke sath chale gye. Uska aur mera ek common frnd tha abhinav usi ne btaya tha…

Sayad uske pair thodi thakawat mehmoos kr rhe the to wo dukan ke paas ek pillar se tek lga ke khada ho gya.

Usne puchcha aur btao koi film me writing ka offer aaya. Maine kaha nhi

Mano koi teacher apne student se carrier ke baare puchch rha ho.fikr to bahut thi use un char saalo me usne mujhe ek aami ladke se khas bna diya tha.mere khane ki chinta mere padhai ki chinta mere future ki chinta fir usi ne mujhe khasamkhas se aam bna diya tha.

Usne chai ka kullhad fekte kaha prem mandir chaloge tumhare paas waqt hai.maine kaha ha usne ek phone kiya aur kaha mai khud aa jaungi.ye keh ke hm log station se bahar aa gye.usne kaha auto wale se puchcho prem mandir chalega.

Maine puchcha aur hm log auto me baith kr ja rhe the wo bahar dekh rha tha.ab ek ajeeb si hichkichahat thi.usne auto ko mujhse highway ki taraf le Jane ke liye kaha.maine auto walo ko keh diya.highway ke taraf ped the kisi pe patank kisi pe kapde adhure pyaar me bhi to latak jate hai.usne kaha yahi rukwa do maine rukwa diya usne kaha kuch khaalo samne restaurant tha usne wahi pure menu card ko dekh rha tha.mai Soch rha tha ki auto ke liye tb mere paas itne paise nhi hote the.pr mai ye bhi to nhi chahta tha ki khachakhach bhari bus me mere sath jaye…

Usne rajma chawal order kiya maine kaha tum usne kaha nhi mai nhi khaunga aaj tum khaao.

Khatam kr ke bahar aaye to thodi dur chalne ke baad barish hone lgi thi usne bag se chhata nikala aur kaha aajao mai ek tuk dekhta ja rha tha.ki ye wahi amar hai jise barish me bheegna pasand tha.

Ab raha nhi ja rha tha to us se puch liya.

Kyu amar kyu chhod gye the hme aur kya zarurat pad gyi char saalo tk kitna achcha tha hmara rista kya achcha nhi tha.

Usne kaha abhi bhi to achcha hi hai shubh.usne btaya wo yahi ek school me bachcho ko padhane lga hai. Usne khud hi btaya shayad ab mera haq nhi tha.

Samne prem mandir tha hm gate se ek bade jhhumar ke niche aa gye the samne radha krishna the unke kandhe pr sir rakh ke mano kah rhi ho ki krishna tum jeevan maran se mukt ho kr ek ho jaye sada ke liye.

Amar ne mera hath pakda uske hath ka paseena mere hatho me mehmoos ho rha tha.hm us radha krishna ki pratima me kho chuke the.aaj wo mandir bahut khoobsurat lg rha tha.

Kho kr wapas aaya to paya amar nhi tha wahan  use yahan wahan dhunda to kahi nhi mila aur meri puri shirt bheegi thi.

Maine us common frnd ko phone kiya usne jo btaya ab tk ho rhe sbhi cheez ko challenge kr diya tha.

Usne btaya 

Shubh uski to aaj subah delhi mathura highway pr accident me maut ho gyi thi…

Mai ye sun kr stabd rah gya tha maine peeche mud kr dekh radha krishna ki murti ko dekha to mano mujhse keh rhi ho ki mohhbbat kaisi bhi achchi hoti hai. Mere Sawalo ka sare jawab mil gya the ab mere ankho se halke se anshu aa gye the pr halki barish ho rhi thi . mano aaj badal bhi rone wale ho.

Tbhi mera phone baja vikash ka tha.

Kahan ho shubh tum.

Maine kaha prem mandir me.

Usne puchcha kahe bhaiya wahan kya kr rhe ho….

Mere muh se nikla Raas……………..

Zindangi ek waiting room...

Waiting room jahan log intzaar krte hai apni manzil tk pahuchne ka.

Aur kisi manzil ho hi na to aise intazaar ka kya karenge..

Avinash ki zindangi bhi aise hi ho gyi thi manzil ke bina intzaar ki….

Ye kareeb 4 saal pahle ki baat jb rehan ki maut ek car accident me ho gyi thi aur wo 2 saal ka rony hath me thama gya tha rehan ke sath hi sayad avinash ke jeene ka maqsad khatam ho jata pr uske jeene ki wajah rony tha.

Avinash tut chuka tha mano koi paltu janwar ki tarah ho gya tha bs ek hi kone me rahta tha.

Avinash beta chala ja na mandi job bhi achchi hai dekh na kaisa sukh gya hai tu km se km apne liye nahi to rony ka Soch.

Jahan baat bachcho ki aati hai to hme na chahte hue bhi haan krni hi padti hai ….

Avinash ne kaha ji ma chal jaunga…

Vadiyo me jhulta hua ghr maano badalo me ghr bna hua ho. Aur wo barish pahle achchi lgti thi pr ab…rehan ke sath Pahli baar shimla hi to aaya tha hotel se bahar jaate the to bheeg kr wapas aate the..

Papa wo dekho khargosh rony ke chehre smile thi aur wo khush tha in wadiyo me…..

Rony ko chhate me liye seedhiyo se utar rha tha ki tbhi kisi ke girne ki awaz suni sedhiya utarne ke liye hoti hai do hi seedhi bachi thi to kisi ko lgi nhi avinash ne rony ko sambhalate hue kaha dekh nhi chal sakte kya….avinash ko gussa aa rha tha bahut aur wo admi kuch 25 ya 26 saal ka tha gorilla ka mask lgaye ye dekh kr rony hasne lga tha…..

Wo uthte hue kaha sorry mask utaarte hue kaha mera naam pawan hai wo seedhiyo pr itni kai aur barish to hm fisal gye the…..

Avinash wahan se chal diya….

Dusre din wahi usne avinash ko roka aur Kaha kl ke liye sorry gussa to abhi bhi tha rony ne puchcha wo apka mask kahan hai jawab diya wo to theatre me hai kl hmara natak hai….

Usne do tickets nikaali aur dene lga avinash ne mna Kr diya usne fir toka shayad aapne hme maaf nhi kiya…

Avinash ne kaha aisi koi baat nhi hai….

Pawan aage aaya aur usne ticket rony ko di to rony jungle book ke character dekh kr bahut khush hua tha…

Pawan ne kaha hm paas aapko de dete pr natak ka kharcha bahut hua bs 200 rupaye…

Avinash ne haste hue wallet se nikal kr de diye…..

kl avinash ko pahle tyaar ho kr rony ko tyaar krna pada play ke liye….

Play khatam hua to usne avinash ko rukne ka ishara kiya…..

Aaiye canteen chalte hai yahan chai bahut achchi milti hai….rony ne puchcha wo apka mask kahan hai….pawan se mask nikaal kr avinash ko de diya kaha tumhare papa ke paas hai….rony baaki logo se baat kr rha tha….

Avinash baithe hue use btaya ki wo uska papa nhi hai uske papa ab nhi hai. Hmne rony ko godh liya tha….actually mai ek ladke se pyaar krta tha bt ab wo nhi hai ye kahte hue avinash ki awaz dab si gyi thi usne ye bhi btaya ki wo school me art teacher hai…..pawan bahut dhyaan se sun rha tha…..

Avinash ne kaha mai ab chalta hu mai…pawan ne kaha ruko adhera ho gya hai mai bhi chalta hu….

Pawan ne avinash aur rony ko ghr chhoda shayad bahut kuch tha pawan ke mn me pr kah nhi paya tha…

Agle din ki shaam thi gate pr knock hua gate khola to gorilla ka mask pahne koi tha rony bahut has rha tha….

Usne mask utara aur kaha andar aa jau…

Usne ghar ki dewaro ki taraf dekha aur kaha koi painting nhi hai avinash ne kaha aap teacher se pahle ek artist bhi to ho…..

Usne ye kah kr mask pehan liya tha aur rony ke sath khelne lga….

Avinash apni khaali deewaro ko dekh rha tha.

Ab roj sham ko pawan rony ke sath khelne aata tha wo nhi aata tha to avinash aur rony chale jate the….

Bahut ghul mil gya tha pawan se….

Avinash ne puchcha pawan aur kon hai tumhare ghr me….

Pawan ne kaha koi nhi hai…

Aur ma

Ma hoti to din bhr ghumta nhi rahta itna sahi kahne me uski ankho me paani aa gya tha…

Pawan uth kr jala gya tha….

Na Jane kb 7 mahine ho gye the mauka tha pawan ka birthday wo hme kisi hotel me le gya tha….

Bahut himmat kr ke usne avinash ki taraf dekha aur kaha…

Avinash hm ek dusre ko achche se jante hai…..

Avinash i love u

Avinash wahan se uth kr rony ke sath chala gya ghr pahuch kr bag se rehan ki tasweer nikali aur bahut roya maano jaise us se izazat le rha ho us naye riste ….

Avinash bahut ro rha tha lekin ye theek bhi tha mn halka hota hai….

Wo kuch samajh nhi pa rha tha…..

3 din ho gye the pawan nhi aaya tha na call na koi msj 

Chouthe din avinash ne phone uthaya aur msj ki pawan ko….

Thank you mujhe samajhne ke liye mujhe zarurat hai aaj shaam ko aaoge na…

Pawan ka reply….

Ek smile thi……..

Usne mobile chhod kr rony ko dekha jo pawan ke na aane se udas tha aur mai bhi shayad….

Sham ko maine gate khol kr rakha hua tha gate se thandi wadiyo ki hawa bah rhi thi rony apne khilone se khel rha tha

Awaz aayi rony maine ankh band ki aur khola to dekha pawan tha gorilla ka mask lgaye…

Rony bahut khush tha pawan ne mask utara aur meri nazaro mila kr maano keh rha ho tumhe sambhal sakta hu…

Maine use dekhte hue ek smile di aur usne bhi maano hmari nazaro ne milo ka rasta tay kiya ho aur intzaar bhi pr abhi bhi manzil dur hi thi….

Mn me lg rha tha ki Zindangi ek waiting room hai……..

Ek radha aur ek rukmani

Subah subah ma ka phone aaya neend khul gyi thi….

Hello virendra.

Ha ma beta shaadi kr le ab tu ab to settle bhi ho gya hai aur Teri waqalat bhi theek thak hai..

28 ka ho gya hai ab nhi karega to kb karega.

Ma mai abhi shaadi nhi Krna chahta hu itna kah kr ma ka phone cut kr diya tha.

Tyaar hua aur apne office aa gya wahan pahle se ek lady baithi thi….

Maine puchcha yes mam.

Unhone kaha waqil shahab mera naam anuradha hai mujhe ek kaam hai apse…

Ji……….

Waqil shahab mere pati ka ek affair tha ab wo to nhi rhe pr unka bachcha hai kuch aisa kr dijiye ki usko bhi uska haq mile aur mere bachcho ko bhi pr iska pta mere bachcho ko na chale….

Achanak mera dhyaan aniket ki tasweer pr chala gya…

Kuch aisa hi to tha mera bhi kissa ek radha aur ek rukmani ka. Aniket ka bhi to mai radha hi tha…..

Baat 9 July 2008 ki thi jb aniket aur hm collage me the wo Pahli baar mujhe dhundhnte hue aaya tha. Hm ek hi class me the b. sc. Pr kuch aisa hua ki hmare raste alag ho gye ya kr diye gye the.

9 July ke baad ab hmari dosti khub ho gyi thi… uska mujhe ghr pr lene aana….

Waqt beet ta gya aur hm waqt ke sath hmare rishte gahre aur mazboot hote gye…. na Jane kb wo sirf dost nhi rha…

Ab mai uska wait collage me nhi cafe me krne lga tha aur unka hmesha late aana fir ek smile dete hue sorry kahna…..

Waqt ko mano pankh lg gye the….

Aniket ne collage band kr diya tha usne btaya papa chahte hai mai civil engineering ki padhai karu maine haste hue kaha good babu…

Pr mujhe khabar hi nhi lgi ki hmare raste bhi alag ho chuke the…

Uske collage chhodne ke baad maine bhi chhod diya mn nhi lgta tha. Or law collage me admit ho gya tha…..

Yun alag nhi ho sakte hm pyaar bahut krta tha wo…

2011 me hm log shimla ghumne gye the wahi usne aur maine use puri tarah apnaya tha…..

Wahan se aane ke baad hm log settle hona chahte the aur hue bhi 2011 ke last tk hm log delhi aa gye the aur hmne ek baby adopt kiya tha 3 years ka. Hmne uska naam sumit rakha tha.

Hm log pura ek saal rahe the.aniket ne btaya ki ghr se call aaya tha ghr ja rha hu..

Papa ne bulaya hai hm dono ne ye baat apne ghr walo se chhupa ke rakhi thi…

Aniket ghr se wapas aa chuke the kuch pareshan the mere puchchne pr kuch btaya nhi sumit ko sula chuka tha aur wo balcony me the.mai bed pr baitha tha ki wo mere pair pakad kr ro rhe the maine puchcha babu kya hua….

Aniket ne kaha papa chahte hai ki mai shaadi kr lu babu yakeen maano apko dhokha nhi dena chahta mai…hmara ek bachcha hai babu pr itni himmat nhi ki ma baapu ko ye sb bta saku…
Babu mai ruk gya tha kahte kahte aniket bahut roya tha us raat 

subah maine use samajhaya ki unke liye tumhari ko priority hai wo sahi kah rhe hai apko shaadi kr leni chahiye andar se bahut ro rha tha…

Aniket ne kaha aur sumit maine smile krte hue kaha sumit ko mai bhi paal sakta hu tb mai roya nhi….

Aur aniket ko shaadi ke liye mna liya tha wo ja chuka tha uske jaane ke baad bahut roya tha maine….

Sumit ko kuch nhi btaya tha wahan aniket ki shaadi ho chuki uska phone aaya tha…

Wo fir bhi dukhi tha mujhe aur sumit ko lekar maine use bulaya aur samajhaya tha ki wo khush rhe ab….

Usne btaya ki wo apni wife ko bta dega maine mna Kr diya tha.

Jb wo delhi shift ho gya tha apni wife ke sath to hafte me ek baar mujhse aur sumit se milne aata tha…

Mai bhi khush tha apne aniket ke liye pr wo ek dohri zindangi ji rha tha….

Mujhe bura lgta tha pr mai bhi pyaar krta tha use..

Mazboor tha us waqt bahut mazboor aniket ki zimmedaari thi uski wife…

Pr maine kbhi us se ye bhi to nhi kaha tha ki mai bhi uski zimmedaari hu…

Aaj 5 saal ho gye the aniket ko dohri zindangi jeete jeete…..

Pr ma ko abhi tk kuch nhi btaya tha bs itna ki maine ek bachcha god liya hai….

Present time….

Tbhi phone ki ring baji maine uthaya to maid thi usne btaya ki sumit baba ghr aa gye hai…..

Mere samne wo lady baithi thi maine unse kaha so sorry mai thoda…

Unhone kaha koi baat nhi waqil shahab…

Unse puchcha ki aap unke bachche ko haq dena chahti hai…

Ji waqil shahab 

Kya aap unhe jaanti hai.ha waqil shahab unka 9 saal ka ladka hai…

Ohk aap apne husband ki will aur unka address details dijiye….mai krishna dunga….

Wo dekar chali gyi file uthayi tbhi phone baja mai office se nikal kr bahar aa gya ma ka phone aaya tha.

Soch rha tha apne aur sumit aur aniket ke baare me aaj 3 hafte ho gye wo aaye nhi aur na call…

Mn me khyaal aaya wo busy honge……………

Office aa kr file uthayi thi naam tha aniket tiwari aur jisko dena tha uska naam tha sumit Srivastava aur pta mera tha……

Rona to bahut aa rha tha pr anshu the ki aaj hi nhi rhe the…..

Ye sb padhne ke baad maine anuradha ji ko 3 din baad bulaya aur kaha anuradha ji unhone lene se mna Kr diya hai unhone kaha hai unka haq aniket pr nhi hua to uski property pr kaise…

Unhone ye bhi kaha hai ki aap bahut lucky hai jo aniket ke sath rah payi aur unka sath pa payi …….. 

unhone ye bhi kaha hai mai radha hu pr aap rukmani 

Ye ek letter unhone diya hai apke liye….

Anuradha ji ke ankh se anshu aa gye the unhone wo koi devi hi hogi inta kah kr wo chali gyi thi….

Mai shaant ho kr ghr aa gya tha…

Papa hm kaha ja rhe hai beta hm nani ke yahan ja rhe hai hmesha ke liye….

Kl subah train thi sari packing ho gyi thi…..

5 baje shaam ko dekha to mera kanpur dikh rha tha sunahari lalima me…

Mn me kah rha tha dekho aniket hm wahi aa gye jahan mile the jahan ek dusre ke sath hmesha rahne ka wada kiya tha…..

Anshu aa gye the…apne aap ko sambhalate hue kanpur aaya fir ghr.

Raat ke khane ke baad sumit so gya tb ma ke paas gya gutno me baith kr sb kuch bta diya aur khoob roya….

Maine ma se aaj rone de ma bahut Dino se anshu nhi nikle dil halka hoga

Ma ne kaha khoob ro beta bahut kuch dil me lekar ghum rha hai achche se ro le………

Tune itna sb kuch tere dil ne saha aur kuch bhi nhi btaya…..

Mai meri zindangi to yahi thi ek radha aur ek rukmani………………..

Pyar aur zarurat....

Babu mere shocks kahan hai…

Almaari me dekho wahi hai. 

Shubh tumhara dhyaan kahan hai dekho paratha pura jal gya hai…

Oh sorry….

Kya baat hai shubh koi baat hai to btao…

Nikhil kuch puchchna hai….

Ye zarurat aur pyaar me farq kya hai… nikhil ne mera hath pakda aur kaha pyar aur zarurat dono me ye farq hai ki zarurat pyaar se alag hoti wo hr waqt sath nhi deti zarurat kuch pl ki hoti hai.aur pyaar puri zindangi ke liye hota hai . pyaar kuch pl ka ho wo pyaar nhi hota……

Ye farq hai bachcha….

Mai ja rha hu office ohk bye love u so much….( Smile krte hue)

Bye nikhil love you too……

Mai sofe me baithe Soch rha tha kl rohan ka call aaya fir bula rha tha….

Jb mai 12th me tha tb hmare ghr ke paas ek ladka rahta tha rohan… dekhne me bahut achcha tha wo mera pahla crush tha.usne mujhe samajha aur mujhe accept bhi kiya…..😔

Hm ghumte the Firte the sath me bahut maze krte the….

Pr kuch chhut rha tha.4 mahine ho gye the hme pr ab wo baat nhi thi…..

Uska jb mn hota tb wo bulata tha lgne lga tha ki sirf zarurat puri kr rha hai wo pr maine wada kiya tha jb tum bulaaoge tb mai zarur aaunga….

Aaj fir rohan ka phone aaya tha.bulaya hai usne……

Janta hu dhokha de rha hu pr kya karu mai mazboor hu…..

Mai apne kaam me lg gya tha….

7 PM. ( Ting tong )

Nikhil aa gya… gate khola…

Kaisa rha apka din baby usne kiss krte hue kaha….

Achcha tha babu…..

Nikhil mujhe aap se kuch puchchna hai….

Babu mai Soch rha tha ki kanpur ho aau…

Ek din ke liye…

Nikhil ne kaha theek hai…..

Nikhil subah me chhodne aaye mai dhokha de rha hu unko nikhil ko nhi pta tha….

Station pr baitha Soch rha tha ki aaj rohan ka wada tod dunga mna Kr dunga ki ab mai nhi aa paunga kisi ke sath me hu ab apne atit ko apne bhavisya pr haavi nhi hone dunga mna Kr dunga rohan se…..

Meri train aa gyi….

Mai apni seat pr jake baith gya shaam ko kanpur me subah jaldi utha to mai so gya….

2 baj gye the adha rasta kt gya tha….

Kanpur utrte hi nikhil ko phone kiya mai pahuch gya babu….

Fir maine rohan ko call kiya wo lene aa rha tha…..

Wo aagya…

Rohan ne puchcha kaise ho mst lg rhe shubh…

Maine smile krte hue kaha theek hu tum btao….

Rohan ke sath uske dost ke ghr gye usne taala khola andar laaya mujhe kiss ki aur kaha bahut din se adhura sa lg rha tha….

Mai kuch keh nhi paya rohan raat ka intzaar kr rha tha aur mai agli subah ka….

Finally raat thi aur wo sb kuch kiya jo rohan ko pasand tha….

Soch rha tha ki kl sb kuch kah dunga..

Subah ho gyi thi rohan mere liye chai bna ke laya…

Maine kaha rohan kuch kahna hai tumse.rohan ne kaha bolo jaan…

Ek lambi saas li aur bolna start kiya…

Rohan mai aaj ke baad nhi milunga tumse kyunki mai nikhil ko dhokhe me nhi rakh sakta…

Mujhe tumhari zarurat nhi nikhil ka pyaar chahiye uske sath rahta hu mai yun uske sath hokar kisi aur ke sath affair nhi kr sakta hu sorry rohan…
Dhokha nhi de paunga use uski ankho maine khud ko dekha hai….

Rohan ne meri taraf dekha rha tha….

Usne smile krte hue kaha shubh mai mna nhi Karunga tumhe shayad jo mai nhi de saka wo wo de sakta hai….

Pahle pyaar krta tha tumse na Jane kb zarurat ho gya wo pyaar pta hi nhi chala in 3 saalo me sach nhi accept kr paya tha pr nikhil ne sachchai aur tumhe accept kiya tha…..

Rohan ne kaha mai aaj ke baad tumhe phone nhi karunga….

Rohan ne kaha tyaar ho jaao nyi zindangi me ja rhe ho…..

Shaam ko train thi rohan train me baitha kr chala gya.

Mai Soch rha tha ki nikhil ko bhi peechle 3 saalo ka sb kuch bta dunga…

Subah ghr pahucha to nikhil ja chuka mai bs shaam ka….

Intzaar khtm ho gya tha nikhil ghr pr tha himmat nhi ho pa rhi thi pr 

ankhe band ki aur kaha nikhil aapko kuch btana hai . …

Nikhil ne kaha kaho babu…

Maine kaha babu aapko puchcho rhe the na ki kahan khoya hu babu jb mai 12th me tha tb mujhe ek ladka mila tha rohan naam ka…aapko yaad hai mai peechle 3 saalo se kanpur jata tha mai rohan se milne jata tha wo mera pahla crush tha….apse puchcha tha na ki pyaar aur zarurat dono me farq kya hai…

Mujhe uski zarurat nhi pyaar chahiy..

aur kl bhi mai usi se mil kr aaya. us se waada kiya tha is liye bs..

Meri ankho se anshu aa rhe the…

Pr rote hue kaha mai use mna Kr aaya ki aaj ke baad nhi milunga us se…

Mujhe kisi zarurat nhi pyaar chahiye..

Nikhil shaant meri taraf dekh rha tha lg rha tha kuch bura kahega.. 

wo utha aur usne kaha bahut bhook lgi hai babu…
Nikhil ne mera hath pakda aur kaha I love u babu take care…

Nikhil ne meri zindangi ko ek Chance aur diya tha wo meri taraf kr ke kah rha ho mai Tum pr trust krta hu tumne sachchai btayi ye badi baat hai . …

Shayad yahi Soch rha ho ya kuch aur 

Nikhil ne kaha babu be loyal with ur self nd ur life….

Love you so much shubh…..

My new flat....

Rithala me new flat liya tha. achcha tha 1bhk flat tha.alag jo ho gya tha kisi se.ab rahne wale do nhi the na….

Kanpur se delhi aaj hi aaya tha aur net pr hi flat book kiya…..

Achcha tha 16th manjil pr tha pura sheher dikhta tha pr……

Is shehar me…….

Apna samaan lgata hu aaj hi lga leta hu kl Sunday hai araam karunga fir Monday se nayi job ha gurpreet publication house me.nayi job lgi thi…..

Mai apna samaan lga rha tha ki ek dairy aur kuch purple colour ke parde mile….

Dairy me koi naam nhi tha bs likha tha….

 dear dairy ….

Mai use side me rakh kr kaam krne lga dekhte dekhte hi raat ho gyi….

Khana khaya aur thak kr so gya……

Sunday…….

Sote Sote 11 baj gye maine jor se awaz lgayi mahi pr kuch jawab nhi aaya….

Mai uth kr kitchen me gya to koi nhi hai….fir yaad aaya wo hai hi nhi…..

Nasta bnaya balcony me aa kr baith gya sardi me dhoop kitni achchi lgti hai na…..

Soccha ki kl jo dairy mili thi padhu…..

Jan 1/Sunday 

Mai abhi gate kholunga aur tum bread aur dhoodh le kr bahar khade hoge…..

Kitni baar kaha hai helmet pahan ke jaya karo pr nhi…..

Apko to action dikhana hona tha hai……

Tumhe yaad nhi hoga ki aaj kya hai pr nhi yaad hoga to mai kahunga bhi kya tumhari smile mera Sara gussa bhula deta hai…..

2 Jan /Monday 

Aaj cafe me tumhara wait krte krte 3 coffee pi li thi….

Pr tumhara kuch ata pta nhi kitni pasand thi tumko ye cafe yahi to CP me mile the hm aur tumne aakr puchcha tha ki tum akele ho…

Maine haste hue kaha tha nhi mere 7 bf hai koi na koi aa jayega…..

Aur tum chale gye the muh latka ke…..

Tum hi ne btaya tha ki wo tree heart shape bnata hai aur us building ke upar do kabutar ka joda hai……

Tum fir late aaye pr tumhari smile…..

Maine dairy band ki aur sochne lga ki jiski dairy hai wo kaisa dikhta hoga….

Uske baal sayad chhote honge aur wo yahi baith ta hoga 

Aur jis tarah se sabdo ko likha hai uski umar lagbhag 30 tk hogi matured writing thi us dairy me…..

Socha jis cafe ka ziqr hai wahan jata hu 

Blue moon cafe…..

Shaam ko gya wahan dhundhne lga wo table kon si hogi jis se wo heart shape wala tree dikhega…..

Finally mil gyi…..

Mai baith gya aur coffee order ki ab mai dhundh rha tha wo kabutar…..

8 baje mai ghr waapas aa gya aur dairy apni table me rakh di…..

Din beet rhe the pr mera atit mujhe chhod hi nhi rha tha naye log naya shahar sb se mai anjaan sb mujhse….

Ek mahine ho gye the aapne aap me itna kho gya ki ek mahine se maine koi book ko published krne ki permission nhi di thi….

Wo dairy dhundh rha tha…

Pta nhi kahan rakh di oh mil gyi…..

Aaj suru se nhi beech se padhta hu…..

15 March 

Kaisa saaman lgaya kuch bhi theek nhi rakha hai gussa aa rha hai tum pr wahan jake tum apni sehat Mt kharab kr lena 

Shayad jb wo ye likh rha tha to ro rha hoga kyunki kahi kahi ki shyahi dhuli hui thi…..

Maine Socha kl phir jaunga wo cafe shayad mil jaye wo…..

Aur apne sath wo parde bhi le gya tha ki milega to de dunga…

Gya wahi table me baitha tha….

Intzaar krte krte shaam ho gyi….

Mere mn me khyaal aaya kyu na is diary ko publishe karu….

Fir 3 din baad mai cafe me tha…

Aaj wo table bhari thi us pr koi 20 ya 22 saal ka ladka baitha tha…

Mai muda to sheeshe me dikhe waise hi hubahu purple parde jo meri taraf se nhi dikh rhe the bt us taraf se seeshe me dikh rhe the…..

Mai jakar uske samne baith gya….

Mai uske samne jake baith gya 

ab shayad wo kabutar yahan nhi rahte . …

Usne kaha ji mai samjha nhi….

Maine fir kaha aaj aapne kitne cup coffee pi….

Maine kaha sb padha hai maine apki dairy me ye sun kr wo gusse se bola….

How dare you to read my personal diary tumhe pta nhi ki nhi padhni chahiye….

Maine kaha ek to mai waapas kr rha hu upar se itna gussa…..

Mai to publish krne wala tha….

Uska gussa or badh gya ab to 

Publish krwa ke to dekho tumhe court tk na laya to dekhna…..

Laao meri diary….

Nhi hai yahan flat me aake le lena bhalai ka to zamana hi nhi ye kah mai nikal gya…..

Agli subah . …

10 baje gate pr bell baji maine gate khola to wahi dairy wala ladka….

Maine andar bulaya aur coffee ke liye puchcha….

Usne smile ke sath kaha yes…..

Mai coffee lekar aaya to dekha wo balcony me hai.mai aaya…

Usne kaha mai yahan ek takhat rakha tha aksar hm dono shaam ko yahi suraj ki jati kirno ko dekhte the.aur wahan samne deewar pr hmari tasveer thi…

meri aur mere bf ki…….

Usne kaha oh sorry mera naam gurpreet singh hai….

Maine Socha mn me kahi to suna hai ye naam 

Are ha gurpreet ji inke hi publication house me job krta hu . ye jyada kaam ghr se hi krte hai to kbhi mil nhi paya tha…..

Maine suna tha inke bf ke baare me wo army me the kashmir me wo shaheed ho gye the…..

Usne kaha mammy papa ab akele rahne nhi dete mai unke sath hi rahta hu ab….

Usne kaha dairy puri padh li….

Maine uske ankhe mila kr ab jarurat nhi….
Maine coffee ke mug uthaye aur Jane lga muda mn me Socha alag nhi hai hm dono ek hi to mera jo chala gya use paane aaya hu aur iska to sb kuch chala gya uske kandhe ki taraf hath badhaya fir kuch soch kr peeche le liye….

Mai use dekh rha ki ab wo yahan zindagi dhundh rhi hai aur yahi se suruwat bhi ki uske sath zindagi….

Use maano lg rha tha us balcony me Ki uske sath uska jeevan saahi yaani anirudh bhi ho…..

Mai mug le kr kitchen me chala gya………

I hate barish

Subah subah Rahul ka phone aaya kaha shubh dekh mausam kitna achcha hai hm aa rhe hai barish me nahaeyenge…..

Maine kaha tu janta hai Rahul I hate barish yr…..

Itna kah kr phone kaat diya……

Kho gaya tha apne atit me peeche chala gya tha ek saal us din bhi to aisi barish ho rhi thi hm naagloi me apne  naye office ka pta dhundh rhe the..

Mai aur Rahul chale ja rhe the barish itni ho rhi thi ki kuch saaf nazar nhi aa rha tha….

Tb chaurahe pr bike pr ek ladka dikha maine puchcha suno ye dainik jagran ka office kahan hai usne do chaurahe aage aur fir right hand side….

Mujhe hmesha se barish na pasand nhi thi…..

Barish ki wajah se hm aage nikal aaye the…

Wo bike wala aage mila usne kaha aapka office peeche chhut gya maine peeche dekha aur kaha……

Usne kaha mai aapko chhod deta hu 

Mai aur Rahul uski bike pr baith gye….

Tb usne btaya uska naam abhishek hai maine kaha thoda aage hi mera room hai . …

Usne mujhe room pr drop kiya….

Maine kaha aander aa jao bheeg jaaoge usne kaha  I love barish….

Mai apne room pr tha ab barish baand hone ke baad Rahul apne room pr chala gya…….

Do hafte ho gye the mujhe shift kiye mera routine yahi tha office fir room pr…..

Ek din office ke baad room pr aaya to dekha abhishek bahar tha…..

Usne ek achchi si smile di aur maine bhi….

Kahta hai mai yahan se nikal rha tha to Socha milta chala. ….

Hm log room pr gye . ..

Maine chai bnayi usne btaya wo ek civil engineer hai…..

Aaj bhi mausam barish wala tha….

Aur halki bunda bandi ho rhi thi wo chhajjhe pr aagya wo barish me khel rha tha aur mai use dekh kr kush ho rha hai…

Wo ek ajeeb si khushi thi…..

Tbhi room ki bell baji gate khola to samne Rahul aur vikky the….

Rahul ne kaha Tune abhi tk chai aur paukode nhi bnaye dekh barish hone wali hai….

Maine kaha tum barish me bheego mai tyaar krta hu ohk…..

Mai kitchen me tyari krne lga aur apne atit ke panno me jhaak rha tha….

Abhishek ab roj aane lga tha bahut si baate hm me same thi wo apna room ka mere sath rahne lga tha . ….

hm dono ne kbhi ek dusre ko nhi kaha tha pr hm dono ek dusre ki parawah krte the…..

Sath me ghumna movie dekhna hme dusre ki company achchi lgti thi aur Rahul bahut kush tha mujhe lekar na Jane wo 3 mahine kaise guzar gye pta hi nhi chala un 3 mahino me hm ek dusre ko chahne lge the…..

Ek saam maine abhishek ke liye chai bnayi wo aaya usne kaha mera kaam ab kuch hi Dino ka bacha hai uske baad mai apne hometown bhopal chala jaunga….

Us din ki chai mujhe aachchi nhi lgi mai puri raat so nhi paya…..

Finally wo din aaya…..

Jb abhi ko jana tha shaam ko uski train thi mn kah rha tha ki ek baar bol kr dekhu shayad ruk jaye…..

Aaj bhi mausam achcha barish hone wali thi wo ja chuka tha mai jhhaajhe pr khada tha Soch rha tha sayad abhi ayega aur peeche pakad kr kahega…..

 meri rooh to tum ho tumhare bina kaisa…..

Pr wo ja chuka tha…….

Mai us raat bahut roya…..

Rahul ne mujhe mere atit se waapas laya kaha kahan kho gye ho saari chai ubal gyi…..

Rahul ne kaha usne ek saal se tere koi email ka jawab nhi diya na….

Mera sar jhuk gya tha Rahul ne kaha ek saal ho gye bhool ja use aur zindagi me aage badh…..

Ye tera laptop khula tha…..

kb tk khud se bhagta firega……

Itna kah kr wo jhhaajhe pr chala gya barish tez ho rhi thi us waqt mera dil aur aankhe dono ro rhi thi……

Maine gas band ki aur jhhaajhe ki taraf chal diya….

Ankhe band ki aur barish me bheegne ko nikla vikky ne kaha tujhe to barish pasand nhi hai na to kyu aaya….

Maine Rahul ki taraf dekha aur kaha 

Anshu nhi dikhenge 

I hate Barish…….

Bheege khat

2012.

Arts collage me ek nayi charcha thi.ye baate ho rhi thi aise riste ki jo hr kisi ke samajh se pare tha.

Ye rishta tha sudhir aur tanmay ka ek aisa rishta tha jo kisi naam ka mohtaaz tha.

Naam mila pr ek ke khatam hone ke baad.kya koi itna pyaar bhi kr sakta hai kisi se…

Sudhir science ka student tha aur tanmay arts ka collage me uske aur sudhir ke riste bahut baate hoti thi…

Log glt bhi kahte the pr tanmay aur sudhir ek dusre ko ek dusre ki company achchi lgti thi….

Ye baat jb ghr tk pahuchi to tanmay bhikhar sa gya tha….

Dec 2012.

Us raat tanmay kuch kagaz ke tukde le kr nikl gya tha ghr se.tanmay ne atmhatya kr li thi us bridge se kood kr…..

Papa ko kbhi bhi pasand nhi aaya tha mera arts padhna papa hmesha se computer padhana chahte the….

Aur mera mn kuch likhne ka hota to hr roj diary likhta tha.arts me achche nmbr nhi aa paye the vajah pta nhi kya thi pr mn hi nhi lgta tha…

To papa ke tane sun ne ke bajaye ghr chhod diya tha aur ek private school me bachcho ko art shikhane lga.pr aaj wo bhi job chali gyi thi school walo ka kahna tha bachcho ko art ab computer se sikhayenge papa ki baat maan liye hote to berozgaar na hote chalo koi baat nhi….

Fir yaad aaya ki makaan malik ko kiraya dena hai wo bhi do mahine ka aaj to wo jaan le lega meri.

Ghr se alag hone ki wajah kuch aur thi meri ek aisa rishta tha jo ankaha tha maine hr kisi se.

1 mahine ho gye the pr job ka kuch ata pta nhi tha Soch rha tha ki suicide kr lu pr mere bhi kuch sapne the jaise ki apna ek masterpiece bnana art me aur usi ko lekar sath suicide krne ka plan tha.pr meri ek dairy bhi to thi.use aur ek canvas ko lekar nikal pada tha.

Apne masterpiece ki talash me bridge ke kinaare ek ped ke niche baitha tha samay yahi koi 5 baje the tbhi ek 23 ka ladka bridge pr aaya kya chehra tha dhaalte suraj ki sunahari lalima uske chehre pr pad rhi thi wo us bridge me kuch kagaz ke tukdo ko fek rha tha jb tk mai pahuch wo ja chuka tha.

Canvas pr upar ke rang bhar diye the….

Dusre din fir mai nikla diary aur canvas le kr ki aaj mera masterpiece ready ho jayega. Pr intzaar krte krte shaam ho gyi thi.pr wo ladka nhi aaya.

Wapas room pr aa gya tha mai. Kuch raate aisi thi meri zindangi ki jo bahut kaali thi…

Maine apni zindagi ko dairy ke hr panne pr utara tha hr sach bayan kiya tha…

Hr wo anubhav tha meri zindangi ka aur…………

Agle subah fir nikle the apna canvas lekr pr dairy to mai bhool gya tha wahi bed pr.

Mn me Socha masterpiece to bne fir dairy le kr kr le.

Aaj ka din bhi nikal gya tha intzaar me.

Khidki ke bahar dekh rha kitna shant hai pr mere mn me uthal puthal thi.zindangi jee nhi pa rha tha mai lg rha tha ki sb kuch khatam ho gya pr ek umeed thi ki shayad zindangi sambhal sakta tha wo pr wo bhi kho gya tha kahi.

Ab to agli subah ka intzaar tha ye mna bhi raha tha kl ke baad na uthu mai hatash tha zindangi se.

Agli subah ho gyi thi canvas le kr nikla tha.dairy wahi rakhi thi takiye ke paas.

Shaam ho gyi thi 5 bajne wale the bhagwaan ne meri sun li thi meri wo ladka fir yahan tha maine awaz lgayi wo ek tuk paani ki taraf.wo kuch liye tha hath me sayad fir kagaz ke tukdo ko fekne aaya tha.

Mai ab uski bai taraf khada tha dhaalte suraj ki sunahari lalima uske chehre pr pad rhi thi aur bahut manmohak lg rha tha…

Tum bilkul  nhi badle manmay room pr gya tha room pr itne sare jaale aur chai ke itne saare kullhad kya ho gya hai tumhe.

Wo ladka meri taraf palta aur kaha kyu manmay kyu nhi roka tha tumne tanmay ko wo tumhara chhota bhai tha us raat tum bhi to the yahan aur kyu nhi roka use tum jante the na wo kitna pyaar krta tha mujhse.

Ye ladka aur koi nhi sudhir tha aur us raat tanmay sudhir ke diye letter fek rha tha…

Mai yahi tha us raat aur tanmay bhi wo keh gya tha sudhir ko mujhe bhulwa dena. Tanmay ne mujhe dhakka de kr gira diya tha aur usne jhalang lga di bridge.

Sudhir mai tumhare aur tanmay me khilaaf nhi tha bs log nhi samajh pate tumhare aur uske riste ko.

Usne rote hue mere hath meri dairy pakadayi aur kaha maine sb padh liya maine use gale lga liya tha usne rote hue kaha aapne kyu nhi btaya ki aap tanmay ke bhai hai Kyu chhupaya manmay.

Mai chup tha koi sabd nhi the mere paas mai neeche pani me dekha to mere bhai ka bheege khat beh rhe the.

Maine kaha sudhir se mai tumhare tanmay ko bacha nhi paya bs.

Ek baat usne kahi thi wo yaad hai ki tumhe hmesha khush dekhna chahta tha. Aur kaha tha.

ishq ishq hota hai uska ko gendar ya dharm nhi hota.

Hm dono pure ho kr bhi adhure the.